I got stuff I need to do;
Typical productive stuff;
Gym, little projects, cleaning, whatever;
'But' I can't;
It's almost a full year since I lost you;
I mean we talked in the middle of that period sure but you weren't there;
Not the 'you' that I wanted anyway;
sigh
I gotta keep playing games and watch movies to keep my mind busy;
Freakin mind accepts those things as distractions but not the more productive stuff;
Who the heck designed my mind?;
I want a refund;
I did try...honestly I did;
I tried to be productive for a week;
You invaded my mind and kept replaying the worst moments over and over and over again;
I ended up not eating for over 48 hours...and I'm going on 49 right around now;
Haha;
I miss you;
I don't want to;
I hate you;
But I need you;
Others will say I don't actually need you...that includes my mind;
A 'need' is something you have to have in your life otherwise you'll die, right?;
Water, food, shelter, socializing - those are what you need, right?;
Well I dunno...cause it feels like I'm dying pretty slow;
It's like being unhappy with you is better than where I am now....crazy;
Maaaaan....I don't wanna die because of you;
That would really ****
Nov 11, 2020
Nov 11, 2020 at 8:50 AM UTC
I got stuff I need to do;
Typical productive stuff;
Gym, little projects, cleaning, whatever;
'But' I can't;
It's almost a full year since I lost you;
I mean we talked in the middle of that period sure but you weren't there;
Not the 'you' that I wanted anyway;
sigh
I gotta keep playing games and watch movies to keep my mind busy;
Freakin mind accepts those things as distractions but not the more productive stuff;
Who the heck designed my mind?;
I want a refund;
I did try...honestly I did;
I tried to be productive for a week;
You invaded my mind and kept replaying the worst moments over and over and over again;
I ended up not eating for over 48 hours...and I'm going on 49 right around now;
Haha;
I miss you;
I don't want to;
I hate you;
But I need you;
Others will say I don't actually need you...that includes my mind;
A 'need' is something you have to have in your life otherwise you'll die, right?;
Water, food, shelter, socializing - those are what you need, right?;
Well I dunno...cause it feels like I'm dying pretty slow;
It's like being unhappy with you is better than where I am now....crazy;
Maaaaan....I don't wanna die because of you;
That would really ****
