i am so tired of
my wrists being a battlefield —
the shrines for all the times i fell —
they all keep falling apart,
and nothing lasts long enough
for all these wounds
to turn into scars.
maybe the problem is that scars mean you're healing.
maybe the problem is that i'm not.
i have worn this skin away —
long shunned by softness
and each day, i cannot fathom how
i can ever manage to hold gentle things —
press them against my chest
when everything i hold
bleeds and breaks,
including me.
i wish my tongue was more made for poems
and not for dry-swallowed poppies;
the moon flinches at the very sight.
i flinch too.
and i am so tired of my entire skin
being a battlefield
when no one can see the casualties
buried quickly —
buried well.
and oh, what i'd give to be
soft enough to grow flowers on graveyards —
and soft enough not to break myself.
Sep 5, 2020
Sep 5, 2020 at 10:04 AM UTC
i am so tired of
my wrists being a battlefield —
the shrines for all the times i fell —
they all keep falling apart,
and nothing lasts long enough
for all these wounds
to turn into scars.
maybe the problem is that scars mean you're healing.
maybe the problem is that i'm not.
i have worn this skin away —
long shunned by softness
and each day, i cannot fathom how
i can ever manage to hold gentle things —
press them against my chest
when everything i hold
bleeds and breaks,
including me.
i wish my tongue was more made for poems
and not for dry-swallowed poppies;
the moon flinches at the very sight.
i flinch too.
and i am so tired of my entire skin
being a battlefield
when no one can see the casualties
buried quickly —
buried well.
and oh, what i'd give to be
soft enough to grow flowers on graveyards —
and soft enough not to break myself.
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