I open my eyes in a daze,
I see the world in a haze.
I think, How much I dont want to get out of bed,
But I also know, I need to escape my head.
Im spiraling further down this black hole,
My mind is racing,
My chest heavy,
My heart aches.
I see blue, tears forming as they please.
I feel red, fists clench tight as can be.
I wish for black, Make all of this pain dissipate.
Fight.
Hide.
Dont cry.
Smile.
Daily things I need to say to myself.
Maybe today will be the best day of your life.
Tomorrow is a new day when that day fails to bring me joy.
Separation from reality sinks in.
Disassociation begins its nasty progress.
Mania takes over.
Memories slip, as I forget minutes,
lead by hours,
days,
sometimes even weeks.
I need to escape my head.
Before I can leave this bed.
Sep 4, 2020
Sep 4, 2020 at 11:32 AM UTC
I open my eyes in a daze,
I see the world in a haze.
I think, How much I dont want to get out of bed,
But I also know, I need to escape my head.
Im spiraling further down this black hole,
My mind is racing,
My chest heavy,
My heart aches.
I see blue, tears forming as they please.
I feel red, fists clench tight as can be.
I wish for black, Make all of this pain dissipate.
Fight.
Hide.
Dont cry.
Smile.
Daily things I need to say to myself.
Maybe today will be the best day of your life.
Tomorrow is a new day when that day fails to bring me joy.
Separation from reality sinks in.
Disassociation begins its nasty progress.
Mania takes over.
Memories slip, as I forget minutes,
lead by hours,
days,
sometimes even weeks.
I need to escape my head.
Before I can leave this bed.
