i don’t think the sadness ever goes away.
at least in my case, not for long.
right before a genuine smile
my sadness reappears with a camera
that blinds me with a flash.
“say cheese” it taunts me,
“yes, just like that.”
fake. a portrait.
and just like that once more i am engulfed
in a ravaged state of despair.
when i sit with my mother to spend a moment together
inside i die knowing that i her little girl
doesn’t want to be anymore.
but i just can’t do that to her.
despite the sadness and madness i don’t ever want to imagine her hurting because of me.
so you see this sadness that never goes away... is tearing me both ways...
so tell me where do i go from here?
Jul 19, 2020
Jul 19, 2020 at 11:01 PM UTC
i don’t think the sadness ever goes away.
at least in my case, not for long.
right before a genuine smile
my sadness reappears with a camera
that blinds me with a flash.
“say cheese” it taunts me,
“yes, just like that.”
fake. a portrait.
and just like that once more i am engulfed
in a ravaged state of despair.
when i sit with my mother to spend a moment together
inside i die knowing that i her little girl
doesn’t want to be anymore.
but i just can’t do that to her.
despite the sadness and madness i don’t ever want to imagine her hurting because of me.
so you see this sadness that never goes away... is tearing me both ways...
so tell me where do i go from here?
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