I'm afraid to be loved.
But that doesn't mean
I don't want to be loved.
I know I say mean things
about myself all the time,
but I do that to protect
myself from potential danger
and unnecessary heartache.
I'm only human,
or perhaps a bit too human.
I can't deal with too much hardship
because it will only make me
spawn an ocean of melancholy.
And I do not want people to see
me drown in my own weakness.
I simply can't allow it.
So I **** it up and carry on.
You might think my mindset
is brave and indeed
it is, to some degree.
But most of all it is painful.
It's so ******* painful.
But I'll get through it, I have to;
until I crash and burn.
May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 8:36 AM UTC
I'm afraid to be loved.
But that doesn't mean
I don't want to be loved.
I know I say mean things
about myself all the time,
but I do that to protect
myself from potential danger
and unnecessary heartache.
I'm only human,
or perhaps a bit too human.
I can't deal with too much hardship
because it will only make me
spawn an ocean of melancholy.
And I do not want people to see
me drown in my own weakness.
I simply can't allow it.
So I **** it up and carry on.
You might think my mindset
is brave and indeed
it is, to some degree.
But most of all it is painful.
It's so ******* painful.
But I'll get through it, I have to;
until I crash and burn.
