Your northern light lures me in
it's blinding my eyes
it's so cold and so tragically beautiful
it's roaming alone on a loose highway
where no man can stay
We all see you, but not all can feel you
I am powerless and drained of self-love
but if you want to, I'll love you enough
enough for you to never feel alone
despite our distance, I'll keep you sane
and perhaps you can keep me warm
We've felt the calamity in our hearts
etching happiness away;
injecting darkness all over
but it's okay, it's all okay now
we've found each other
and we'll get through it
I do not know much, but this I know;
all this pain and suffering have not been in vain
since it led me to you, and you to me
so let's give happiness a second chance, shall we?
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 8:19 AM UTC
You are half a world away
but you still make my heart flutter.
May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 8:43 AM UTC
I'm afraid to be loved.
But that doesn't mean
I don't want to be loved.
I know I say mean things
about myself all the time,
but I do that to protect
myself from potential danger
and unnecessary heartache.
I'm only human,
or perhaps a bit too human.
I can't deal with too much hardship
because it will only make me
spawn an ocean of melancholy.
And I do not want people to see
me drown in my own weakness.
I simply can't allow it.
So I **** it up and carry on.
You might think my mindset
is brave and indeed
it is, to some degree.
But most of all it is painful.
It's so ******* painful.
But I'll get through it, I have to;
until I crash and burn.
May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 8:36 AM UTC
Different ways of dying,
occupy my mind every night.
One of them might be worth trying,
if it'll make serenity hold me tight.
Dec 20, 2019
Dec 20, 2019 at 4:36 AM UTC
I wish I cared a little less
about what the world thinks of me.
Because it only makes me more depressed
when perfection is always out of my reach.
I wish I loved myself a little more
for the sake of my starving self-esteem.
But I lost the key to the entrance door
thus my happy ending remains a pipe dream.
Dec 4, 2019
Dec 4, 2019 at 1:20 AM UTC
The thought of dying
occupies my mind too often
I'm not okay
The place we go to when we fall asleep
let me stay there forever, please
Because I'm not okay
In the waking hours, I stumble
around in a world of make-believe
I'm still not okay
The darkness is cold but kind
it offers me a place to hide
Can I be okay?
I'm floating around in a straitjacket
on the edge of the universe
I'll never be okay
Dec 2, 2019
Dec 2, 2019 at 11:34 AM UTC
You brighten up my day
in such a peculiar way.
My usual blue feeling
morph into a smile which the
familiar tears can't wash away.
Nov 18, 2019
Nov 18, 2019 at 5:49 AM UTC
I'm filled to the brim,
yet I'm still threatening
myself with a paper
gun behind my head.
My hands are feverishly
searching for the heart that
vanished with no warning,
whilst the swaying anxiety pushes
me over the familiar edge;
thus my world is turned
upside down, yet again.
The place where my dreams used
to pave the way, has been demolished.
Now a black hole is roaring,
and it's spilling ancient demons
that stain my happiness.
They dance their shadow dance
while chanting self-destructive orders.
I can hear them day and
night, but they are most
prominent from dusk to dawn.
And it's during these
lonely hours that my
ears get painted red
and my cheeks stay wet.
Nov 5, 2019
Nov 5, 2019 at 7:44 AM UTC
I know I'm a fool for
running away from love,
especially when love is the only
thing I've been dreaming of.
But I'm afraid of rejection, so I
isolate myself from other's affection.
Time after time I find myself
walking this road alone,
with just the thought of love
to keep me warm.
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 3:32 PM UTC
Sometimes I want love to find me.
For when love takes over,
you'll walk the road of serenity.
You'll climb the mountain of euphoria.
You'll swim the ocean of ecstasy.
Yet, I don't think love is good for me.
I'm afraid it'll **** me in a state of oblivion.
But perhaps that's all I ever really need;
to fall into the pit of love and never
break through the surface again.
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 2:44 PM UTC