When will this end
When will I stop being in pain
When will I be okay
When will I find my happiness
I stand here
With my heart bleeding
Tears of blood
Running down my face
I ask you
Do I even deserve love
Or am I destined to be hated
For all my life
I ask you this
Because deep within my heart
I feel like I don’t
Deserve anything but hate
Just rip me open
Take my bleeding heart
Into your callused hands
And squeeze it hard
Crush it so I don’t have to feel
This horrible pain
I’m begging you
Just end it
Because if I can’t have love
Then just give me death
I’d rather be dead
Than hated by you
You say you forgive me
But I don’t feel that’s true
I forgave you instantly
And my actions shown true
I may not be able
To control my alters
But my heart will always remain
Right by your side
I just wish you realized that
Before shutting me out
Like I should have realized
My alters ****** up
My alters are not me
Yet you jumble us up as one
I have no control
When I’m not the host
I’ve gotten so much better
At keeping them at bay
I just wish I learned to do it
Before it was too late
Cause now I stand here
All alone and bleeding
My heart split in two
Forever waiting for you
Apr 17, 2020
Apr 17, 2020 at 6:40 PM UTC
When will this end
When will I stop being in pain
When will I be okay
When will I find my happiness
I stand here
With my heart bleeding
Tears of blood
Running down my face
I ask you
Do I even deserve love
Or am I destined to be hated
For all my life
I ask you this
Because deep within my heart
I feel like I don’t
Deserve anything but hate
Just rip me open
Take my bleeding heart
Into your callused hands
And squeeze it hard
Crush it so I don’t have to feel
This horrible pain
I’m begging you
Just end it
Because if I can’t have love
Then just give me death
I’d rather be dead
Than hated by you
You say you forgive me
But I don’t feel that’s true
I forgave you instantly
And my actions shown true
I may not be able
To control my alters
But my heart will always remain
Right by your side
I just wish you realized that
Before shutting me out
Like I should have realized
My alters ****** up
My alters are not me
Yet you jumble us up as one
I have no control
When I’m not the host
I’ve gotten so much better
At keeping them at bay
I just wish I learned to do it
Before it was too late
Cause now I stand here
All alone and bleeding
My heart split in two
Forever waiting for you
