i am in so much pain
my whole world is spinning all the time
i tried to take up nicotine to help
it isn't
i tried to drink all my problems away
and now i fight the urge every day
i'm trying to get better
but god **** it it feels impossible
when no one is in your corner
when getting out of bed feels like climbing a mountain
but no one understands that
because that is just something most people do without thinking about
so when you say getting up is hard, they call you lazy
so you start to think you are just a lazy piece of **** who needs to do better
then they ask why you are always in a sweatshirt
why you never do your makeup
why your hair is always a mess
why your eyes are puffy
why you killed yourself
why you didn't talk to anyone
why you didn't get help
why you ended it all
- what if i take all my pills?
Apr 8, 2020
Apr 8, 2020 at 3:49 AM UTC
i am in so much pain
my whole world is spinning all the time
i tried to take up nicotine to help
it isn't
i tried to drink all my problems away
and now i fight the urge every day
i'm trying to get better
but god **** it it feels impossible
when no one is in your corner
when getting out of bed feels like climbing a mountain
but no one understands that
because that is just something most people do without thinking about
so when you say getting up is hard, they call you lazy
so you start to think you are just a lazy piece of **** who needs to do better
then they ask why you are always in a sweatshirt
why you never do your makeup
why your hair is always a mess
why your eyes are puffy
why you killed yourself
why you didn't talk to anyone
why you didn't get help
why you ended it all
- what if i take all my pills?
please don't end it. i love you. you can make it.
