With each passing day
The light inside me dies
Surrounding me in eternal darkness
And snuffing out any form of happiness
I beg and I plead for relief
But it never comes
It only gets worse
And I can’t take it anymore
I love him with every fiber of my being
Yet nothing I say or do matters
It’s like he doesn’t care anymore
And I’m tired of this pain
I try and I try
To hide all of it
From his gaze
But I can’t hide forever
He says he still cares for me a lot
But honestly with his actions
It speaks the opposite
I just wish he would speak the truth
Speak from your heart
Don’t hide anything
Let it all out
Just like I have done
Lay your very soul
Upon the table bare
So we can finally understand
One another’s feelings
I fear that I don’t have much left
My will is slowly fading
I’ve already reverted back to self harm
Soon it will start to get worse
My heart will start to decay
Turning off all care for life
I will constantly be fighting
My darkest of thoughts
Thoughts that I haven’t had
Since I was a teenager
Thoughts that I could suppress
Just by looking at him
Seeing his dorky grin
The smell of his skin
The gentleness of his touch
The love in his eyes
These things made me so happy
That I couldn’t think like that
I didn’t want to think like that
All I cared about was being with him
Now I have mixed feelings
Feelings of betrayal and fear
Of longing and anger
Of love and regret
I know he won’t talk
Cause every time we try
It just makes it works
Cause he won’t say anything
I ask if things will be okay
I ask if I will ever be with him again
But all he says is give it time
And I see no love in his eyes
I see no more longing
No more want
No more pleading
Just vacant eyes staring back
I start to ponder
If I was ever good enough
If I will ever make it through this
Will I ever be happy again
But with how things are going
I doubt I will ever be happy
My heart is in so much pain
I feel like I’m dying
And it’s only getting worse
With each passing day
So I beg of you
Just talk to me one last time
Let everything out
Don’t hold back
There is so much to say
That you try and hide
Feb 3, 2020
Feb 3, 2020 at 8:59 AM UTC
With each passing day
The light inside me dies
Surrounding me in eternal darkness
And snuffing out any form of happiness
I beg and I plead for relief
But it never comes
It only gets worse
And I can’t take it anymore
I love him with every fiber of my being
Yet nothing I say or do matters
It’s like he doesn’t care anymore
And I’m tired of this pain
I try and I try
To hide all of it
From his gaze
But I can’t hide forever
He says he still cares for me a lot
But honestly with his actions
It speaks the opposite
I just wish he would speak the truth
Speak from your heart
Don’t hide anything
Let it all out
Just like I have done
Lay your very soul
Upon the table bare
So we can finally understand
One another’s feelings
I fear that I don’t have much left
My will is slowly fading
I’ve already reverted back to self harm
Soon it will start to get worse
My heart will start to decay
Turning off all care for life
I will constantly be fighting
My darkest of thoughts
Thoughts that I haven’t had
Since I was a teenager
Thoughts that I could suppress
Just by looking at him
Seeing his dorky grin
The smell of his skin
The gentleness of his touch
The love in his eyes
These things made me so happy
That I couldn’t think like that
I didn’t want to think like that
All I cared about was being with him
Now I have mixed feelings
Feelings of betrayal and fear
Of longing and anger
Of love and regret
I know he won’t talk
Cause every time we try
It just makes it works
Cause he won’t say anything
I ask if things will be okay
I ask if I will ever be with him again
But all he says is give it time
And I see no love in his eyes
I see no more longing
No more want
No more pleading
Just vacant eyes staring back
I start to ponder
If I was ever good enough
If I will ever make it through this
Will I ever be happy again
But with how things are going
I doubt I will ever be happy
My heart is in so much pain
I feel like I’m dying
And it’s only getting worse
With each passing day
So I beg of you
Just talk to me one last time
Let everything out
Don’t hold back
There is so much to say
That you try and hide
