I am afraid of affection
yet I crave it
I want you to stay
but then I want you to go
I'm content one minute
and the next I am angry
I blow up with anger
after taking in so much
My mood swings from highs and lows
every. single. day.
I want to care for me
but then I want you to treat me like trash
I want you to love me
but then I want you to not give a **** about me
I like to be alone
but I don't ever want to be lonely
My sadness is always there
just sometimes milder than others
And don't forget about the
suicidal thoughts
My mind has convinced me
that I am a horrible person
My mind has convinced me
that the people around me hate me
My mind has convinced me
that I am trapped in this hell
What is wrong with me?
Can someone save me?
Dec 30, 2019
Dec 30, 2019 at 4:59 AM UTC
I am afraid of affection
yet I crave it
I want you to stay
but then I want you to go
I'm content one minute
and the next I am angry
I blow up with anger
after taking in so much
My mood swings from highs and lows
every. single. day.
I want to care for me
but then I want you to treat me like trash
I want you to love me
but then I want you to not give a **** about me
I like to be alone
but I don't ever want to be lonely
My sadness is always there
just sometimes milder than others
And don't forget about the
suicidal thoughts
My mind has convinced me
that I am a horrible person
My mind has convinced me
that the people around me hate me
My mind has convinced me
that I am trapped in this hell
What is wrong with me?
Can someone save me?
Just an inside to how my mind works
Does anyone else feel the same way?
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