My heart is broken
Doesn't seem like it will be fixed
The pain is too much
It hurts to exist
My chest feels
Like a ton of cement
Is weighing it down
Threatening to crush
I wish I knew how
To bare this pain
But I fear it's too late
That my times almost up
My love is so strong
But it feels like it's a joke
Thoughts run rampid
Pushing to suicide
I don't know how much longer
I can push these thoughts down
Hoping that something will change
And that it will be alright
But the more these thoughts
Run wild inside my mind
The harder I find
To stay alive
Thoughts that seem almost
To be imagined
Like what really happened
With my love
What happened with my sanity
I feel it's already gone
Running amuck inside my head
Causing delusional thoughts
I hate to say it
But I fear I won't last
This trial that seems to last
For a million eternities
Do I run and hide
Or do I stay and fight
But also if I do stay
What if it's not me
What if it's someone else
What if I'm not picked
What happens then
Cause I can't stand that pain
These thoughts keep racing
Causing paranoia and misery
Should I just give in
And let my thoughts win
It keeps getting worse and worse
I just wish it would stop
Though I don't see that
Happening anytime soon
The love I have
It hurts too much
So I don't know
If I'll survive
I just wish someone
Would rip out my heart
And stop the pain
So maybe I can
Dec 12, 2019
Dec 12, 2019 at 3:51 AM UTC
My heart is broken
Doesn't seem like it will be fixed
The pain is too much
It hurts to exist
My chest feels
Like a ton of cement
Is weighing it down
Threatening to crush
I wish I knew how
To bare this pain
But I fear it's too late
That my times almost up
My love is so strong
But it feels like it's a joke
Thoughts run rampid
Pushing to suicide
I don't know how much longer
I can push these thoughts down
Hoping that something will change
And that it will be alright
But the more these thoughts
Run wild inside my mind
The harder I find
To stay alive
Thoughts that seem almost
To be imagined
Like what really happened
With my love
What happened with my sanity
I feel it's already gone
Running amuck inside my head
Causing delusional thoughts
I hate to say it
But I fear I won't last
This trial that seems to last
For a million eternities
Do I run and hide
Or do I stay and fight
But also if I do stay
What if it's not me
What if it's someone else
What if I'm not picked
What happens then
Cause I can't stand that pain
These thoughts keep racing
Causing paranoia and misery
Should I just give in
And let my thoughts win
It keeps getting worse and worse
I just wish it would stop
Though I don't see that
Happening anytime soon
The love I have
It hurts too much
So I don't know
If I'll survive
I just wish someone
Would rip out my heart
And stop the pain
So maybe I can
