when my brain wanders
i’m reminded of pain
all the meds can’t cure it
but they make me more sane
when i look in the mirror
and feel nothing
when i realize i have sad eyes
tears forming start to sting
when i count the scars on my body
shocked and reserved
i manage to not mind them
and miss the hurt
physical pain is euphoric
reminding me i’m just a human
cutting brings me breath
like when i got the wind knocked out of me
this is the cycle i need to break
i can’t keep feeling pain
though it’s a familiar friend
i need to vanquish faith
i feel the only way to do that
is to leave this world
a blip fluke of a human
just.. forgotten dust
not dissimilar to the dust in the pills
keeping me here
momma give me strength
i need to feel you near
Jun 26, 2019
Jun 26, 2019 at 1:45 AM UTC
when my brain wanders
i’m reminded of pain
all the meds can’t cure it
but they make me more sane
when i look in the mirror
and feel nothing
when i realize i have sad eyes
tears forming start to sting
when i count the scars on my body
shocked and reserved
i manage to not mind them
and miss the hurt
physical pain is euphoric
reminding me i’m just a human
cutting brings me breath
like when i got the wind knocked out of me
this is the cycle i need to break
i can’t keep feeling pain
though it’s a familiar friend
i need to vanquish faith
i feel the only way to do that
is to leave this world
a blip fluke of a human
just.. forgotten dust
not dissimilar to the dust in the pills
keeping me here
momma give me strength
i need to feel you near
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