"We are taught to hate ourselves."
I was brought up to hate myself
Only worth what others say I am worth.
That conditional love...
I was born, without a choice
but to trust you.
I unconditionally love you;
but you're not entitled to hurt me.
Every day my heart is ripped a thousand ways.
I don't know me
only who you told me I was to be
who you said I was allowed to be
do you hate the true me?
Why do you not want me to shine?
You knock me down and I don't understand why.
Belittle and break me until I cry.
Nothing is good enough no matter how I try.
When I begged for support; you said to stop that lie.
I needed your love and you said goodbye.
So I gave up... I wanted to die.
The pain of a distant relationship with you
hurts less...
Than the pain of trying to endlessly please you
the pain of never being good enough
pain of impossible standards
of emotional abuse
conditional love
Jun 23, 2019
Jun 23, 2019 at 5:09 AM UTC
"We are taught to hate ourselves."
I was brought up to hate myself
Only worth what others say I am worth.
That conditional love...
I was born, without a choice
but to trust you.
I unconditionally love you;
but you're not entitled to hurt me.
Every day my heart is ripped a thousand ways.
I don't know me
only who you told me I was to be
who you said I was allowed to be
do you hate the true me?
Why do you not want me to shine?
You knock me down and I don't understand why.
Belittle and break me until I cry.
Nothing is good enough no matter how I try.
When I begged for support; you said to stop that lie.
I needed your love and you said goodbye.
So I gave up... I wanted to die.
The pain of a distant relationship with you
hurts less...
Than the pain of trying to endlessly please you
the pain of never being good enough
pain of impossible standards
of emotional abuse
conditional love