#narcissistic
You dismissed evolution when the animal learns to bite to survive,
you only care when it bites you.
My mother calls me selfish with tears in her eyes.
All I can think about is when they locked me out barefoot in the snow for crying as a child,
with the coyotes of northern Virginia.
And how the animals didn’t harm me,
but instead looked back at me with tears in their own eyes.
Because we were both subjected to the cold of our livelihoods that taught us to fend to protect ourselves,
even if we were both born with what others saw as a fur coat to never feel the ice.
Only the coyotes was made of fur,
yours was made of the stability they gave you.
How could you be cold when others could see what you had?
To them you had a coat on,
It didn’t matter if it you could actually feel it or not.
We both learned to fight for our food,
both demonized for it by the same reason we fought for it in the first place.
You hunt for your food once.
You hunt for it twice.
You hunt for your food three times.
Until your natural instinct is to hunt, and to hurt.
Although you weren’t born to hunt, you weren’t born an animal.
You were made into one.
Forced to hurt for your food because they didn’t want to feed you.
They try to feed you now, and you bite them.
They’ll wonder why,
they’ll tell you that you shouldn’t.
You don’t bite the hand that feeds you.
But they never did.
You fed yourself.
You protected yourself.
You comforted yourself.
The only person there for yourself was you.
You were made into the animal,
now when they try to be there for you,
you bite.
They’ll call you violent.
“Petty”
“Abusive”
“Selfish”.
But they don’t care that you were taught to bite.
They only care because you bit them.
Because the mark from your bite was proof they made you this way.
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 7:45 PM UTC
Sometimes
When you are too arrogant
You become stupid
When you are too incompetent
You become stupid
When you are too grandiloquent
You become stupid
When you are too belligerent
You become stupid
When you are too racist
You become stupid
When you are too egotist
You become stupid
When you are too insensitive
You become stupid
When you are too divisive
You become stupid
When you are too aggressive
You become stupid
When you are too heteronormative
You become stupid
When you are too xenophobic
You become stupid
When you are too demagogic
You become too stupid
When you are too narcissistic
You become stupid
When you are too misogynistic
You become stupid
When you are too negative
You become stupid
When you are too abusive
You become stupid
When you are too dishonest
You become stupid
When you think you're the very best
You become stupid
When you're a pathological liar
You become stupid
When you are too ******
You become stupid
When you are too extreme
You become stupid
When you are too obscene
You become stupid
When you are too selfish
You become stupid
When you smell better than fish
You become stupid
Sometimes
When you put other people down
You become a clown
You become stupid
As an example, Cupid
Was wise, humble and nice
When you are stupid
You pay a heavy price
You go down as the worst
In history, not the very best
It pays to be fair, respectful and just
All the gold, the glitters and the lust
Are not eternal; they do not last
With time, they get lost in the past
Let the people do the cheering and the bragging
The world is not dumb, everybody is watching.
Copyright © September 2018, Hébert Logerie, All rights reserved
Hébert Logerie is the author of several books of poetry.
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 12:00 AM UTC
Why do I keep trying?
Why do I reach out, already knowing I’ll be met with bared teeth and sharpened claws?
I am a naïve child,
stretching my arm into the mouth of a rabid, hostile creature,
hoping somehow,
that this time it won’t bite.
Hoping I won’t be met with more hurt than I can carry.
Every time I reach, I am bitten.
Bruised.
Clawed.
And still, I go back.
Why?
Is it instinct? something wired deep inside of me that I can't unlearn?
Is it naïveté, the quiet belief that love might soften her eventually?
Is it love itself, stubborn and self-sacrificing, refusing to die even when it’s starving?
Left to rot away, skin and bones, bleeding out.
Is it manipulation? Something I fell for years ago not realizing she gains pleasure from the blood she spills?
I don’t know.
All I know is that I keep reaching for her,
even when my hands are empty and covered in my own blood,
even when there’s nothing left of me to give, nothing left for her to take
even when I already know how it goes.
Jan 26
Jan 26, 2026 at 5:56 PM UTC
With one act you inspired a tragedy that would last over 36 years.
What kind of woman loves like this?
My back against the wall
You assume I'm here to suffer and take it all.
Smile in my face, angry ear to ear
Screaming at me is all I ever hear.
What kind of woman loves like this?
Gaslight
Try to make me fight or flight
The hands you laid upon me aren't heavenly
This judas kiss is very untimely
What kind of woman loves like this?
Used to be someone I loved
Used to be someone I trusted
Used to be someone I thought was my hero
You're just watching Rome burn like Nero
What kind of woman loves like this?
With one act you inspired a tragedy that would last over 36 years.
What kind of woman loves like this?
Jan 21
Jan 21, 2026 at 10:46 AM UTC
My heart is rusting from the
Tears I'm choking down
Finding out my whole life
I've been played as a clown
I've wiped away
This painted smile
And purged myself
From words so vile
My reeling emotions
No longer your puppet
My healing heart
Encased in a locket
Jan 4
Jan 4, 2026 at 8:30 AM UTC
Why is it that he insist
to put poison in my mind?
He never quits instead persists
until I question time after time.
Its as if he wants my happiness
but only if it is with him.
If any other were to make me smile,
he'll try to destroy it on a whim
Claiming that it's love he feels
but how could that be true?
When if you truly love someone
you want them happy, even if its not with you.
But my happiness is not his goal,
so he warps and twists my thoughts.
Which leaves me scared and questioning
because that is TRUELY what he wants.
He is poisoning the way I think
about somebody knew
tricking my mind to make me think
that the new guy will hurt me too.
This is not fair or kind or love,
his actions are pure manipulation
yet even knowing all of this,
my thoughts somehow are still all racing,
Apr 12, 2025
Apr 12, 2025 at 8:12 AM UTC
She had Aces up her sleeve
Yet everyone else was cheating her.
Dec 4, 2025
Dec 4, 2025 at 12:35 AM UTC
You brought me into this world
To punish me for your mistake.
You could have terminated the misery;
Maybe you would have, in retrospect,
If only you reflected on anything
Other than the pain of your self-possession.
Maybe you’d see that I was born to lose,
Find myself worthy of every bruise.
You stripped me of my autonomy.
I’ll never find a way to make you sorry.
You’re a stranger to apology,
Too infatuated with commiseration
To hear me choke on the guilt,
Gasp through tempered oxygen,
A vessel knotted in tension.
A clenched fish of crushed hope.
A tightrope of flashbacks and fear.
Every slammed door
Echoes the silence you dragged me under.
Because it was your right
To raise me through spite,
To dim every light I find.
To push me towards the familiarity
Of cruelty in the vein of your malicious misery.
I never asked for this:
To be forced to kneel on eggshells
To someone so beneath me.
I’m proud to be antithetical to you,
A fragile ego void of empathy
And your bitterness you taught to never cease.
Sep 30, 2025
Sep 30, 2025 at 5:50 AM UTC
What if I told you I dreamed too high,
But you always wanted me low?
My head clearly belongs in the clouds
While your face is upside down, in the ground.
My feet on the very edge of the chair.
Too busy in my fabricated daydreams, unaware.
Do I miss you? Not really.
Thanks for all the times you treated me painfully.
If only you could see me now,
I could take you to those clouds.
But I know one day you’ll visit me
Bothered by the disgusting feelings.
I loved when your hands were on me,
But now all I feel is the weight of rope tightening.
Aug 18, 2025
Aug 18, 2025 at 8:40 AM UTC
I love my Narc, I call him dad or daddy. They say I am daddy’s girl; they say my daddy loves me more! As I grew older, I felt I must go to war just to get a few words. Time passes; can I still love my daddy? My heart hurts, I was once my daddy’s prize possession. Now I look in the mirror and cry, I feel like a bad decision. I am the first born, my daddy’s first girl. I know they tell him “You should call her”, but my daddy is a businessman he has no time for his daughter. As soon as my phone rings, I drop everything. “Hi daddy, I miss you! How have you been?” is what I say every time he calls. He never showed affection, so I always ask myself will I be lucky today, “Bye daddy, I love you!”, I just hear the phone call end. I'm in tears. Can you love a Narcissistic father? I do, it’s just harder
May 22, 2025
May 22, 2025 at 4:58 AM UTC
There is nothing left to say. You declared with audacity how I was an impediment. I recollected how pitiable I was, desperate for nothing, because it wouldn't, it didn't alter anything. So enamored was I with you, I relinquished half of myself to appease you. The superior parts of me I surrendered willingly to you, as I permitted myself to become illicitly compliant in the scheme of deceiving myself. I believed the half-truths, the falsehoods, and the empty promises. You made a wreck of me, exposing me to such debasingly immoral things. I thought I could trust you after everything we shared. I never knew such passions; I never felt such care. How was I to know none of it was genuine?
Time has elapsed, and I have healed. I have moved on, not as swiftly as you, and it didn't take another to get me here. So, the emails, the texts, the contacting my family needs to cease. It doesn't matter if I'm single. What mattered was that I had so much fight in me to save us I was a willing participant, my own collateral damage when it came to you. I allowed so much and pleaded for so long for you to see me, to love me as I did you. Like you once used to. The fool I played, for it wasn't love at all. It wasn't even lust; it was mere 'usage.' I contorted myself to fit into your world. I reinvented myself to a lower self in place of the worldly woman I once was. I infringed on my intellect and played dumb, forever the fool, all for you. And it still wasn't enough. You told me I was too strong, too independent, and so I diminished myself. My integrity be ****** I lowered my standards and discarded my boundaries to please you. All for what? For you to do exactly what I implored you not to do: to toy with me, to lie and deceive, to harm and torture, to manipulate and abuse. And even then, it wasn't enough. I was never enough.
No matter now. I have healed myself, and I have moved on. How wonderful it is to see I am nowhere near where I used to be, and the me I am today you'll never get close to. So, for all the attempts at contacting me and wanting to talk, I must let it be known I have nothing left to say!
Dec 30, 2024
Dec 30, 2024 at 7:37 AM UTC
There is a sadness in my eyes
That no one knows
Feeling lost and alone
The emptiness grows
All I ever wanted was a love, a love that was true
A love that would shelter me when everything was blue
With hope in my eyes and pain in my heart
I look to you to help me restart
My life
Can you put your anger aside and hold my hand through this dark lonely night
And carry me to a brand new day
Where the sky is blue again and the sun shines the way
You are my rock, my shelter from the storm
Can you give to me and keep me safe and warm
Hold me in your arms and never let me go
Letting nothing come between us
Ever again.
Dec 9, 2024
Dec 9, 2024 at 1:44 PM UTC
Her eyes tell a story if you look close enough
Her shoulders are rounded from a life that's been tough
Her days carry on with no hope in sight
The same old song repeated each night
The angst of longing for the one that won't love back
Her heart is heavy and her days are black
But yet she keeps on hoping for him to see the light
To learn how to give himself and make everything alright.
She needs him to be with her while the chips are down
He can't seem to understand why she needs him around
She screams for help but no one hears her call
The one she needs the most won't listen at all
No understanding that this sadness she can't help.
There's no way out for her. Her life is a living Hell.
Dec 9, 2024
Dec 9, 2024 at 1:41 PM UTC
I love you
I love yo
I love y
I love
I lov
I lo
I l
I
I once....loved.....you.
But you took everything I gave off my self and through it away.
I said everything will be okay, do you trust me? I asked, while you replied a yes.
But you couldn't wait for me or it.
Every day I came home from work you met me with anger and bad words.
You through things at me even though I didn't understand what I had done wrong.
I was exhausted and fatigued but still....I kept on for you.
And still you continued to through me under the buss as I was the one to be blamed on for everything wrongdoing that you did towards me.
No
No
No
I don't love you anymore.
I don't love anyone anymore.
My soul, my heart has been destroyed because of you.
And my mind....it has grown 1000 layers of hardened shield to protect my emotions from escaping out..
Because I have lost hope, trust, love in everyone because of you.
No one will ever hear my deepest emotions anymore... only a "I'm okay".
I hate you for it.... but I'm thankful for the lesson I have learned because of what you did towards me.
I am and never will be the same person ever again who I watched in the mirror yesterday.
©copyright 2024 David Jacobsen
Nov 25, 2024
Nov 25, 2024 at 4:50 PM UTC
i guess you didn’t mean what you said
cause it’s 7am and i’m hanging by a thread
last weekend, your bride
now nothing but a downside.
Oct 2, 2024
Oct 2, 2024 at 5:23 PM UTC
I should've been a better friend
I should've been there for you
I should've known better...
But as much as it pains me
To admit such terrible truth
You know I've always been
The narcissistic type
And had to make it
All about me
Sep 16, 2024
Sep 16, 2024 at 12:30 PM UTC
I see a glimpse of the past
I see the trouble
Ignore the sensible
Invite the unknown
Leap into the warmth
It’s inviting
You can’t resist
The pain it will bring
Pretend it doesn’t exist
Something doesn’t feel welcoming
Yet alluring at the same time
You have just been experienced a narcissist
Your pain is his gain
Mar 3, 2024
Mar 3, 2024 at 4:46 PM UTC
I thought you cared for me
Because, your words had always conveyed that to me
I was supposed to be your best friend
However, our relationship, you decided to end
You said you were my sister
But you left me feeling rather bitter
Because you cared only about yourself
And left me hating myself
For something as minor as a Facebook comment
Never did you have any good intent!
I thought you cared for me
But it was never "we"
It was all "you"
Our friendship had no value
Because you were obsessed about yourself
You and your anaconda sized ego
Which you could never let go
You and your precious Mumbai Indians
Were the only **** sapiens
Who truly mattered to you
Apart from your "bestest friend"
You, would he blindly defend
As though you were a Nobel Prize winner
While you were actually a sore loser
With an extremely domineering personality
Masked by a deceptively sweet tongue
I thought you cared for me
But you never let me be
Because, all that mattered, was your precious image
Often, would you take umbrage
Over relatively insignificant matters
Such as me not marking you present
When you were LITERALLY absent
No wonder, did you have your haters
Because, YOU came before everyone else
Never did you take a pause
And empathise with anyone
In fact, YOU were everyone!!
I thought you cared for me
But you never truly cared for anyone
You thought you were a special someone
Who deserved all the attention in the world
On the other hand, often did you fold
At the slightest hint of pressure
Though you were so sure
That you were always right
Oh boy, never were you a pretty sight!!
I thought you cared for me
But you never took the trouble to understand me
You called me your best friend
But I was nothing more than a means to an end
Because you were a narcissist
And as a friend, one of the worst
Seriously, accepting your offer of friendship
Was nothing short of a mishap!!
Anyway, you will get what's coming to you
Your friends will eventually leave you
And then it will be just YOU
Left to fend for yourself
As you deserve to be
Because you are so obsessed with yourself
However, the world is for all
It's time you learned that
Once and for all!!
Mar 3, 2024
Mar 3, 2024 at 11:30 AM UTC
I am not a mother
And for that reason,
It wouldn't be fair for me to speak to the frustration you must feel having a child who just couldn't ever get it all together.
I cannot remember the times as a baby where you consoled me without anger.
I cannot fathom that there was a moment in my life where you held me and rocked me to sleep without feeling like I somehow owed you something.
I cannot speak to how many nights you spent awake crying because I kept you awake and all you needed was just a few hours of sleep to keep going.
I cannot recall these things, but I think, I hope, that you were the kind of mother back then, who did it all.
I am not a mother
I do not know the kind of disappointment that having a 29 year old child living at home must bring.
I do not always get things right
I do not always pull my weight and I don't pay your bills and I see the way you clench your fists and sigh everytime I have anything to say back about your demands.
I am far from perfect
I have caused so much pain over the years and believe me I know,
I haven't made loving me very easy.
But I am not YOUR mother.
It is not my job to regulate your emotions.
I am not obligated to take your side in every argument even when I know you are wrong.
Because sometimes, you ARE wrong.
I am your daughter
I have tried my whole life to make you proud, to prove to you I am worthy of your love, even though I am no longer a "child".
Sometimes it works
You give me your love when it's easy.
When I do something you can brag about to your friends.
You love me when it's convenient, for YOU.
Then again, a mother's love isn't supposed to be conditional
The silent treatment only makes me fold further into my own skin.
Your back handed comments about everything I don't do, and how I should be so grateful to have a roof over my head, only breeds more resentment and hurt inside of me.
I know I am lucky
I know that so many other families have it worse and that from the outside looking in, we are this perfect family.
The thing is, no one is perfect, not even you
I never expected you to be a perfect mother, a perfect mother does not exist.
I expected you try.
I expected you to teach me how to love myself before anyone else because I am deserving of it.
I expected you to be there for me when things were falling apart, without judgement, or anger, or guilt.
You never loved yourself either
And my heart hurts to think about the stories of your childhood.
Your own mother could never give you the love you deserved.
But I NEEDED you to break the cycle
I needed you to ask for help.
I needed you to recognize that you have caused a lot of hurt for me too.
I needed you to want to change.
To this day, you've never gotten the treatment you so desperately needed
I'm not saying this to be mean
I'm saying this because none of us are immune to trauma and if it's not dealt with, the cycle continues.
Unfortunately, I am now part of this cycle too
I cannot help but think that if you had only gotten the help you needed when I was younger, I wouldn't need to be the one in treatment for trauma.
I cannot help but wonder what our relationship could have been like today, had you faced your own demons and fought them, like the warrior I know you can be.
But I know,
I am not a mother.
I am under your control.
It is how you like it.
How you need it to be.
I am not a mother.
I am silenced.
Jun 23, 2023
Jun 23, 2023 at 9:27 PM UTC
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Narcissistic -
Empathetic;
Automatic
Narcoleptic:
To the dreamers
Divine deceivers
A Sublime message,
The faith's receiver'
Understanding lonesome
Psychic sleepers;
The Destroyers'
Disguised Defeater.
Naturalistic,
Apathetic -
Neolithic?
Unrealistic.
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Jun 16, 2023
Jun 16, 2023 at 10:48 AM UTC