your tenebrous image enraptures me
future’s heat brands me with you
your silhouette fills my vision
but all your features are hidden
calling to me in a voice I know
but have not yet heard
a shout made a whisper
you are so many years away
always I have known you
sensed you by your absence
I chafe and fret, anxious and
expectant of your arrival
believing it imminent
eagerly I shut my eyes to
what little I know of you
trusting as only callow
youth allows that no
more is needed
than my open arms
I see you everywhere
impetuously I give my heart
only to find no synchrony
even the lineation was wrong
each time it is not you
you are still
far from me
yet I am wrenched forward
I lurch undiscerning, heedless
pressed forever into rashness
by all consuming urgency for you
endless, fruitless searching
confusion and despair
my constant companions
lost in a torrent of nothing
like one freezing
in lingering polar night
to stop is to die, helpless
I stumble towards providence
Feb 27, 2019
Feb 27, 2019 at 11:29 PM UTC
your tenebrous image enraptures me
future’s heat brands me with you
your silhouette fills my vision
but all your features are hidden
calling to me in a voice I know
but have not yet heard
a shout made a whisper
you are so many years away
always I have known you
sensed you by your absence
I chafe and fret, anxious and
expectant of your arrival
believing it imminent
eagerly I shut my eyes to
what little I know of you
trusting as only callow
youth allows that no
more is needed
than my open arms
I see you everywhere
impetuously I give my heart
only to find no synchrony
even the lineation was wrong
each time it is not you
you are still
far from me
yet I am wrenched forward
I lurch undiscerning, heedless
pressed forever into rashness
by all consuming urgency for you
endless, fruitless searching
confusion and despair
my constant companions
lost in a torrent of nothing
like one freezing
in lingering polar night
to stop is to die, helpless
I stumble towards providence
An account of my unfortunate teenage years. It is a follow on to Separated By Birth.
I have made some changes as I felt some things were in need of clarity.
