I have a smile on my face
and it feels right, too.
A smile so big it makes my cheeks hurt!
A smile I can’t erase
because you, because you, because you
I’m almost always sad
but I talk to you and the world seems brighter;
a world so bright it’s like walking on the sun.
Around you things never seem as bad,
and I feel like my body’s a lot lighter.
Because you, because you, because you
You only see me as a friend,
but I love you so dearly I
kiss you every morning in my mind’s eye.
And every night, I pull my sheets close to me
in crude imitations of your embrace.
Even so,
it really doesn’t matter to me
because the brightness of the world you’ve given me
lives in my body. Dimly, faintly it shines.
It’s you, it’s you, it’s you
The ember of the earth itself
has been placed in my beating heart,
thawing old permafrost wounds.
And thanks to its warmth, the old
buried seeds of my joy have been coaxed to growth.
Because of you, because of you, because of you
As my new feet take root
in the soil of my life, the light of
my love for you makes me a flower
that breathes the same warm, restoring
flame that I tremulously blew from the
ember you gave me.
It won’t matter
if all I have left someday
is an amber hued ashen ember, and
if the fire in my heart burns to nothing at all, or
even if I am lost to glowing light of the world.
It wouldn’t matter if the petals of the flower you turned me to
wilted and fell. Still all I had I would give you,
Because it’s you, because it’s you, because it’s you.
And maybe on that day, I would make you a living, fiery flower too.
Jan 1, 2019
Jan 1, 2019 at 1:42 AM UTC
I have a smile on my face
and it feels right, too.
A smile so big it makes my cheeks hurt!
A smile I can’t erase
because you, because you, because you
I’m almost always sad
but I talk to you and the world seems brighter;
a world so bright it’s like walking on the sun.
Around you things never seem as bad,
and I feel like my body’s a lot lighter.
Because you, because you, because you
You only see me as a friend,
but I love you so dearly I
kiss you every morning in my mind’s eye.
And every night, I pull my sheets close to me
in crude imitations of your embrace.
Even so,
it really doesn’t matter to me
because the brightness of the world you’ve given me
lives in my body. Dimly, faintly it shines.
It’s you, it’s you, it’s you
The ember of the earth itself
has been placed in my beating heart,
thawing old permafrost wounds.
And thanks to its warmth, the old
buried seeds of my joy have been coaxed to growth.
Because of you, because of you, because of you
As my new feet take root
in the soil of my life, the light of
my love for you makes me a flower
that breathes the same warm, restoring
flame that I tremulously blew from the
ember you gave me.
It won’t matter
if all I have left someday
is an amber hued ashen ember, and
if the fire in my heart burns to nothing at all, or
even if I am lost to glowing light of the world.
It wouldn’t matter if the petals of the flower you turned me to
wilted and fell. Still all I had I would give you,
Because it’s you, because it’s you, because it’s you.
And maybe on that day, I would make you a living, fiery flower too.
this was about the boy i liked last summer