My chest aches
As tears threaten the corners of
My eyes
They're dry
Like the wind
She really damaged me
Y'know
I don't like to admit it
I'd rather just hide
The scars
Are red from scathing acid
It's not like you can see them
She didn't hit me
Afterall
We went through a lot
That's what we said
Back then
She told them
She might love
Only me
She never told
She never showed it either
I knew I loved her
More
Or less she admitted it
It feels like a curse
The people I deeply
Love
Others, too or more
Which could be fine with him
If it weren't for
Her
Inability to carry out
Multiple relationships
Or at least to care about what
I felt
Alone and abandoned
Unloved and unworthy
To her I wasn't
Apparently
She loved me more
I don't care that she never told me
Just that
She never showed me
Lasting love or compassion
Never proved that poly works
And then poly came up again
With him
I'm sad about it
The idea makes me feel broken
I'm so sorry
I don't want poly
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 11:43 PM UTC
My chest aches
As tears threaten the corners of
My eyes
They're dry
Like the wind
She really damaged me
Y'know
I don't like to admit it
I'd rather just hide
The scars
Are red from scathing acid
It's not like you can see them
She didn't hit me
Afterall
We went through a lot
That's what we said
Back then
She told them
She might love
Only me
She never told
She never showed it either
I knew I loved her
More
Or less she admitted it
It feels like a curse
The people I deeply
Love
Others, too or more
Which could be fine with him
If it weren't for
Her
Inability to carry out
Multiple relationships
Or at least to care about what
I felt
Alone and abandoned
Unloved and unworthy
To her I wasn't
Apparently
She loved me more
I don't care that she never told me
Just that
She never showed me
Lasting love or compassion
Never proved that poly works
And then poly came up again
With him
I'm sad about it
The idea makes me feel broken
I'm so sorry
I don't want poly
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Polyamory was really freeing for me at one point, but then it hurt a lot. I know poly can work, but, as of right now, I am actively choosing monogamy. I feel bad for not giving my partner the chance to experience poly with me, but I am not ready.
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