When you left
I could see
That what I kept
Was not to keep
A broken bond
was what you made
I was so fond
and yet I paid
For all the nights
you said you would
It was not right
“Can” is not “should”
So yes you left
And I was afraid
But a bond of theft
Isn’t one where I gain
I will not devote
Myself to his cause
So I said “end-quote”
This isn’t a pause
My life does not stop
Because he’s not here
I will not drop
And I have no fear
So I move on
Myself in check
He is now gone
No more Russian roulette
Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 10:41 PM UTC
When you left
I could see
That what I kept
Was not to keep
A broken bond
was what you made
I was so fond
and yet I paid
For all the nights
you said you would
It was not right
“Can” is not “should”
So yes you left
And I was afraid
But a bond of theft
Isn’t one where I gain
I will not devote
Myself to his cause
So I said “end-quote”
This isn’t a pause
My life does not stop
Because he’s not here
I will not drop
And I have no fear
So I move on
Myself in check
He is now gone
No more Russian roulette
I wrote this so soon after it was over. I try to tell myself it's better this way. I don't know if I believe it.
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