you hit me like an ugly freight train
although i did see you in the distance
please don't judge me
i saw one sign,
but didn't believe it could be true
lost in a swirl of dark shadows
judgement judgement judgement
looking to the past and future and present
searching for proof for or against
my dark shadows test my body
who would think of this
i must be evil, gross, and wrong
suicide the only hope
watching water fowl swim
wish i could drown beneath
the algae pond in california
secret secrets i finally speak
pills, doctors, fears, hoping
but always sitting there
the thoughts that keep me tied to the sofa
staring at blank walls and stabbing myself in my mind
ocd is my deepest shame
i feel the tentacles reaching
my stomach turns at the ghosts that haunt me
resist the pull of falling in
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 1:23 PM UTC
you hit me like an ugly freight train
although i did see you in the distance
please don't judge me
i saw one sign,
but didn't believe it could be true
lost in a swirl of dark shadows
judgement judgement judgement
looking to the past and future and present
searching for proof for or against
my dark shadows test my body
who would think of this
i must be evil, gross, and wrong
suicide the only hope
watching water fowl swim
wish i could drown beneath
the algae pond in california
secret secrets i finally speak
pills, doctors, fears, hoping
but always sitting there
the thoughts that keep me tied to the sofa
staring at blank walls and stabbing myself in my mind
ocd is my deepest shame
i feel the tentacles reaching
my stomach turns at the ghosts that haunt me
resist the pull of falling in
