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i hate the feeling electricity zapping panic rising up elephant sitting when you have to breathe to live but breathing kills you frantic brightness fills my eyes become not my own this rollercoaster the ride is rising imminent crescendo comes makes my brain explode frantic morphs into the manic part takes over breath is optional heart racing pumps blood this is my brain not on drugs **** this high on life is this how he felt? fragmented thoughts shooting pain in constant motion he was bi-polar only 26-years-old manic made him shoot powder burns gaping bullet isn’t only a word it’s self-inflicted is this how he felt? ghosts collide with memories make sense make sense again is this how he felt? i can’t get out of my head south polar-trapped north reality shifts welcome to my Upside-Down make this go away perspective shifted shattered doesn’t begin to put name to sorrow i miss him so much every breath i take is laced knowledge of absence i welcome the pain i feel him trapped inside me can i do this life? my world has shattered i will never be the same **** this time and place
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Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 12:41 AM UTC
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i hate the feeling electricity zapping panic rising up elephant sitting when you have to breathe to live but breathing kills you frantic brightness fills my eyes become not my own this rollercoaster the ride is rising imminent crescendo comes makes my brain explode frantic morphs into the manic part takes over breath is optional heart racing pumps blood this is my brain not on drugs **** this high on life is this how he felt? fragmented thoughts shooting pain in constant motion he was bi-polar only 26-years-old manic made him shoot powder burns gaping bullet isn’t only a word it’s self-inflicted is this how he felt? ghosts collide with memories make sense make sense again is this how he felt? i can’t get out of my head south polar-trapped north reality shifts welcome to my Upside-Down make this go away perspective shifted shattered doesn’t begin to put name to sorrow i miss him so much every breath i take is laced knowledge of absence i welcome the pain i feel him trapped inside me can i do this life? my world has shattered i will never be the same **** this time and place
#grief#little#brother#mental#illness#bi#polar#suicide#haiku
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Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 12:41 AM UTC
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