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I am so tired of the struggle Existing every torturous minute on Earth Want to feel good when I wake up Look at myself, know my worth. I want my insecurities to disappear With me all hours of the day Tried to abandon them with no luck Stubborn ******** are determined to stay. Distort my vision often Sing fears, remind of the nothing I've become Watching with glee as I sit in this prison Search for something to make sadness numb. A substance to silence my sorrows Found conflict instead of the comfort I crave I want tomorrow to carry less dread Forecast is hot weather, not enough shade. The Earth keeps on surprising me How I wish the pain would stop I miss the days when monsters weren't real Now my shoulders they sit atop. The world shakes unstable feet Each time recovery takes longer I am beginning to understand defeat I think about past tears, I get stronger. Like sun beaming after a rainstorm I will blaze more brilliantly than before Confidence shining through open pores in skin Self_acceptance and forgiveness lighting my core. I need to change my attitude Drop bad habits weighing me down Like leaves shed by Autumn trees Free myself, let them cascade to the ground. Mood flips rather quickly I want control over emotions I feel I may be happy for a moment but it never lasts I savor those seconds my smile is real.
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Aug 7, 2018
Aug 7, 2018 at 4:53 PM UTC
Savor My Smile
I am so tired of the struggle Existing every torturous minute on Earth Want to feel good when I wake up Look at myself, know my worth. I want my insecurities to disappear With me all hours of the day Tried to abandon them with no luck Stubborn ******** are determined to stay. Distort my vision often Sing fears, remind of the nothing I've become Watching with glee as I sit in this prison Search for something to make sadness numb. A substance to silence my sorrows Found conflict instead of the comfort I crave I want tomorrow to carry less dread Forecast is hot weather, not enough shade. The Earth keeps on surprising me How I wish the pain would stop I miss the days when monsters weren't real Now my shoulders they sit atop. The world shakes unstable feet Each time recovery takes longer I am beginning to understand defeat I think about past tears, I get stronger. Like sun beaming after a rainstorm I will blaze more brilliantly than before Confidence shining through open pores in skin Self_acceptance and forgiveness lighting my core. I need to change my attitude Drop bad habits weighing me down Like leaves shed by Autumn trees Free myself, let them cascade to the ground. Mood flips rather quickly I want control over emotions I feel I may be happy for a moment but it never lasts I savor those seconds my smile is real.
It used to be real most of the time. Now its hardly ever real.
#sad#fake#smile#savor#mood#control#emotions#real#free
AmandaKayBurke
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AmandaKayBurke
30/F/Alaska
Aug 7, 2018
Aug 7, 2018 at 4:53 PM UTC
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