My reflection haunted me
following me wherever I went
each mirror, window, glass pane
depicted a stranger’s body
a body that I wanted to disown
I burnt my house to the ground
abusing my fragile mind and body
distorted images of myself constantly flashed by my eyes
a vision that only I seemed to be able to see
a disillusioned truth I was unable to escape
Picking myself apart
slowly plucking away at each string
Unravelling
searching for something
anything good
yet always coming up empty handed
I desperately craved a sense of satisfaction
I never managed to taste
no matter how much I manipulated my body
making it painfully disappear
it was never enough
Truly believing that my flaws
my insecurities
were the only thing that I possessed
my refection only ever revealed the things I lacked
the ugliness of it bringing me to tears
My tormented mind drove me to extremes
completely losing myself and any sense of sanity
illogical thoughts became logical
controlling my actions
dictating my life
Somewhere along the way
my quest for perfection
Became a quest for self-destruction
For death
Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 7:11 AM UTC
My reflection haunted me
following me wherever I went
each mirror, window, glass pane
depicted a stranger’s body
a body that I wanted to disown
I burnt my house to the ground
abusing my fragile mind and body
distorted images of myself constantly flashed by my eyes
a vision that only I seemed to be able to see
a disillusioned truth I was unable to escape
Picking myself apart
slowly plucking away at each string
Unravelling
searching for something
anything good
yet always coming up empty handed
I desperately craved a sense of satisfaction
I never managed to taste
no matter how much I manipulated my body
making it painfully disappear
it was never enough
Truly believing that my flaws
my insecurities
were the only thing that I possessed
my refection only ever revealed the things I lacked
the ugliness of it bringing me to tears
My tormented mind drove me to extremes
completely losing myself and any sense of sanity
illogical thoughts became logical
controlling my actions
dictating my life
Somewhere along the way
my quest for perfection
Became a quest for self-destruction
For death