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September 2nd, 2016 I received my diagnoses. Borderline Personality Disorder Yikes.... But then it all started to make sense. I understand myself now more than I ever have before. But try explaining this to a friend, a lover, a family member. "Borderline of what?" They all ask. Let me explain.... I am on the borderline The borderline of love, and of hate I love so deeply, I can make you feel like you're on top of the world.. But then I split. And suddenly, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, But don't leave me. please don't ever leave me. Love me, Love me. Leave me behind. I'm the borderline I can be the happiest of people. But also the most depressing. See when I feel happiness I see that the sun shines brighter, I notice the good in the little things. When I'm happy l, I feel invincible. But then... In the blink of an eye, I split. And suddenly, I'm the lowest of the low. I'm standing on that edge, Hoping to God I have the courage to take one more step. To end it all. Staring down that bottle of pills, feeling like swallowing them maybe wouldn't be so bad. I am on the borderline... of your best friend, And some days, your worst enemy. I push you away, I pull you too close. The borderline of loneliness, and never really being alone. I am on the borderline, The borderline of insanity. The borderline of my sanity. I have borderline personality disorder, And these borders have taken over me.
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May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 7:59 PM UTC
The Borderline
September 2nd, 2016 I received my diagnoses. Borderline Personality Disorder Yikes.... But then it all started to make sense. I understand myself now more than I ever have before. But try explaining this to a friend, a lover, a family member. "Borderline of what?" They all ask. Let me explain.... I am on the borderline The borderline of love, and of hate I love so deeply, I can make you feel like you're on top of the world.. But then I split. And suddenly, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, But don't leave me. please don't ever leave me. Love me, Love me. Leave me behind. I'm the borderline I can be the happiest of people. But also the most depressing. See when I feel happiness I see that the sun shines brighter, I notice the good in the little things. When I'm happy l, I feel invincible. But then... In the blink of an eye, I split. And suddenly, I'm the lowest of the low. I'm standing on that edge, Hoping to God I have the courage to take one more step. To end it all. Staring down that bottle of pills, feeling like swallowing them maybe wouldn't be so bad. I am on the borderline... of your best friend, And some days, your worst enemy. I push you away, I pull you too close. The borderline of loneliness, and never really being alone. I am on the borderline, The borderline of insanity. The borderline of my sanity. I have borderline personality disorder, And these borders have taken over me.
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Thingsillneversay
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Thingsillneversay
27/F/Ontario, Canada
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 7:59 PM UTC
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