Every night I end up thinking
Of why the world did this to me
I have never understood the meaning
Of how on earth this could be
Why, oh why am I so upset?
Because all I feel is pain and misery
My body gives me existential regret
Why I was born this way will always be a mystery
Disphoria is full of dark thoughts
About how people can tell that I'm fake
I always wish this body would just rot
And reveal a new one that I won't hate
I don't have normal body issues
I just wish my chest was nonexistent
I have to reach for the tissues
To wipe away my tears of existence
Some boys are born with comfort
I was one of the unlucky few
I was born unready and contort
And there's nothing I can do
I'm so unhappy that it's scary
I feel like there's no escape
And not just my sadness or wary
But from my horrible, disphoric mindscape
Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018 at 3:35 AM UTC
Every night I end up thinking
Of why the world did this to me
I have never understood the meaning
Of how on earth this could be
Why, oh why am I so upset?
Because all I feel is pain and misery
My body gives me existential regret
Why I was born this way will always be a mystery
Disphoria is full of dark thoughts
About how people can tell that I'm fake
I always wish this body would just rot
And reveal a new one that I won't hate
I don't have normal body issues
I just wish my chest was nonexistent
I have to reach for the tissues
To wipe away my tears of existence
Some boys are born with comfort
I was one of the unlucky few
I was born unready and contort
And there's nothing I can do
I'm so unhappy that it's scary
I feel like there's no escape
And not just my sadness or wary
But from my horrible, disphoric mindscape
Disphoria is a big part of my life. It's not one I want but I might as well express it.
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