Count your sins
One, two, three,
Revisit the hurt
That you caused to me
Steer your thoughts in my direction
Look back
Are you afraid
Of your own reflection?
Are you afraid of what you’ll see
The ghosts and terrors that are haunting me?
Face your fears, I’ve faced mine
A hundred million thousand times
You held me down, you were a person of trust
You should not be forgiven
But punished, you must
Look back on your actions
May they fill you with dread
Yes it’s true
We all wish you were dead
Hang your noose high
Off the highest tree
String yourself up
Do this for me
For this is your penance
For the crime you have done
You say you are a victim
But I’m the true one
For what I have lost
I will never get back
Something everyone had
But something I lack
I look at myself
What was I then?
Was I merely a tool
To be used by men?
I will smash that mirror
No! I am my own!
I am no longer a tool
For I have grown!
Bigger and stronger
I have fought for my life
I’m now an adult
I’m someone’s wife
My destiny is my own
I’ll create my own way
I’ll tell you what I think
When we meet some day
You’ll get an ear full
Full of fire and wit
You will deny deny deny
But we both know you did it
Now hang you head
In utter disgrace
You are an embarrassment to us
You must leave this place
We don’t want you here
You wasted your chance
To have a normal family
When you shoved your hand in my pants
I did not fight
I did not scream
But I was a child
Now it seems like a dream
Children cannot consent
This you knew
Stop pretending
That you’re a victim too!
You knew what you did
We all trusted you
Sorry I’m not lying
I only said what was true
When you held me down
Defiled my name
Laughing and smiling
Now my whole life is stained
The games are over now
Now the battle will start
Look into my eyes, tell me
Do you really have a heart?
The heart of a father?
A husband or friend?
A so called victim
Anyone would defend?
You say it is lies
I make it a big deal
Shut the **** up
Beg for forgiveness and kneel
Kneel on the ground
Cry at my feet
Beg for forgiveness
I’ll make it short and sweet
As I tell you I know
Of all you have done
You truly really are
The evil one
Collect your lies
Your thoughts and deceit
Get the **** out of here!
You coward, retreat!
You are not welcome back
Though you think you may be
In reality few want to see you
They know what you did to me
Why don’t you face me?
Face to face and hand to hand
Are you worried
That I’ll prove to be more then a man?
I’ve lived more hardship
Then you could ever explain
It hardened and aged me
No, it brings me no shame
For now I am older
In my thoughts, in my heart
There are hot embers within me
Get back, a fire may start!
You won’t face me at all
You know I will burn you
Burn your wicked flesh and bones
Down to the last sinew
You won’t make it if you fight me
This you know to be true
You will think you are fighting me
But in the end
It is YOU
Mar 21, 2018
Mar 21, 2018 at 3:16 PM UTC
Count your sins
One, two, three,
Revisit the hurt
That you caused to me
Steer your thoughts in my direction
Look back
Are you afraid
Of your own reflection?
Are you afraid of what you’ll see
The ghosts and terrors that are haunting me?
Face your fears, I’ve faced mine
A hundred million thousand times
You held me down, you were a person of trust
You should not be forgiven
But punished, you must
Look back on your actions
May they fill you with dread
Yes it’s true
We all wish you were dead
Hang your noose high
Off the highest tree
String yourself up
Do this for me
For this is your penance
For the crime you have done
You say you are a victim
But I’m the true one
For what I have lost
I will never get back
Something everyone had
But something I lack
I look at myself
What was I then?
Was I merely a tool
To be used by men?
I will smash that mirror
No! I am my own!
I am no longer a tool
For I have grown!
Bigger and stronger
I have fought for my life
I’m now an adult
I’m someone’s wife
My destiny is my own
I’ll create my own way
I’ll tell you what I think
When we meet some day
You’ll get an ear full
Full of fire and wit
You will deny deny deny
But we both know you did it
Now hang you head
In utter disgrace
You are an embarrassment to us
You must leave this place
We don’t want you here
You wasted your chance
To have a normal family
When you shoved your hand in my pants
I did not fight
I did not scream
But I was a child
Now it seems like a dream
Children cannot consent
This you knew
Stop pretending
That you’re a victim too!
You knew what you did
We all trusted you
Sorry I’m not lying
I only said what was true
When you held me down
Defiled my name
Laughing and smiling
Now my whole life is stained
The games are over now
Now the battle will start
Look into my eyes, tell me
Do you really have a heart?
The heart of a father?
A husband or friend?
A so called victim
Anyone would defend?
You say it is lies
I make it a big deal
Shut the **** up
Beg for forgiveness and kneel
Kneel on the ground
Cry at my feet
Beg for forgiveness
I’ll make it short and sweet
As I tell you I know
Of all you have done
You truly really are
The evil one
Collect your lies
Your thoughts and deceit
Get the **** out of here!
You coward, retreat!
You are not welcome back
Though you think you may be
In reality few want to see you
They know what you did to me
Why don’t you face me?
Face to face and hand to hand
Are you worried
That I’ll prove to be more then a man?
I’ve lived more hardship
Then you could ever explain
It hardened and aged me
No, it brings me no shame
For now I am older
In my thoughts, in my heart
There are hot embers within me
Get back, a fire may start!
You won’t face me at all
You know I will burn you
Burn your wicked flesh and bones
Down to the last sinew
You won’t make it if you fight me
This you know to be true
You will think you are fighting me
But in the end
It is YOU
