It’s the little things, not smiling at something great
Not even chuckle at a stupid pun from my mate
Not taking in a new sight, but simply walking past
Being unable to describe it, when somebody asked
Only crying, every night- until I fall asleep
Not permitting myself to snooze, unless I weep
Clenching onto my pillow, within an ocean of tears
Uncontrollably shaking as I think about my fears
Shaking and crying but no sound,
And I wipe the tears with my doubts
Just to be able to sigh again
This must be the end of my brain
Do you reckon?
My mind is going a hundred miles a second
Whilst I’m completely still,
My mental state is going downhill
I miss the smell of a freshly cut lawn
My sensations are weak, most already gone
I miss to feel emotion,
Colours as vast as the ocean
An unlimited amount I had,
But now they’re all gone
Maybe all these negative thoughts,
I just have to act on
I want you to smile,
Don’t wish you any pain
Just let me suffer alone,
What would I gain
From making you suffer with me?
I’ll keep this to myself
Pull the words from my vocal chords
And place them on the top shelf
Making sure you cannot reach
Of course, it’s just figure of speech
I’ll stay grey, like a lack of colour
My soul keep shrinking,
It keeps getting smaller
Smaller like my mind
The vast darkness takes over
Now all colour’s gone,
Nothing left to discover
I need you,
I need your smile,
It’s replaced by something abysmal,
Replaced by something vile
I want to look you in the eye,
And just hear you say
“Shh.. It will all be okay.”
Want to break down in your grip,
Tell you everything but no,
Instead I abandon ship
Again
Running from the truth
I miss the everlasting heat of the sun
My sensations are weak, most already gone
I miss to feel emotion,
Colours as vast as the ocean
An unlimited amount I had,
But now they’re all gone
Maybe all these negative thoughts,
I just have to act on
Thinking about what’s going on
I do that a lot,
Ever since I fought
The lack of a sunshine
It’s the main reason I’m not fine
Not fine at all, I miss the brightness
But you I haven’t missed, not in the slightest
You, the one bearing the false truth
You’ve been bothering me since my youth
Stop pulling me back, let me be with my friends
Running through these green fields,
Before it all ends
Its the little things, a breeze through my hair
Well the weather’s always changing, to be fair
Can’t expect it to always be sunny
But it’s been raining for too long now,
This isn’t funny
Droplets the size of cars
Drowning my brain
I’m gasping for air,
I’m going insane
But it’s the little things, and in the end
I’ll even crack a smile as I descend
I miss your touch
Oh I miss it so much
Your laugh, cry and warm face
The memories they’ll never erase
But you’re now gone, I miss you friend
I wipe a tear as you ascend
For the last time.
Feb 8, 2018
Feb 8, 2018 at 7:40 PM UTC
It’s the little things, not smiling at something great
Not even chuckle at a stupid pun from my mate
Not taking in a new sight, but simply walking past
Being unable to describe it, when somebody asked
Only crying, every night- until I fall asleep
Not permitting myself to snooze, unless I weep
Clenching onto my pillow, within an ocean of tears
Uncontrollably shaking as I think about my fears
Shaking and crying but no sound,
And I wipe the tears with my doubts
Just to be able to sigh again
This must be the end of my brain
Do you reckon?
My mind is going a hundred miles a second
Whilst I’m completely still,
My mental state is going downhill
I miss the smell of a freshly cut lawn
My sensations are weak, most already gone
I miss to feel emotion,
Colours as vast as the ocean
An unlimited amount I had,
But now they’re all gone
Maybe all these negative thoughts,
I just have to act on
I want you to smile,
Don’t wish you any pain
Just let me suffer alone,
What would I gain
From making you suffer with me?
I’ll keep this to myself
Pull the words from my vocal chords
And place them on the top shelf
Making sure you cannot reach
Of course, it’s just figure of speech
I’ll stay grey, like a lack of colour
My soul keep shrinking,
It keeps getting smaller
Smaller like my mind
The vast darkness takes over
Now all colour’s gone,
Nothing left to discover
I need you,
I need your smile,
It’s replaced by something abysmal,
Replaced by something vile
I want to look you in the eye,
And just hear you say
“Shh.. It will all be okay.”
Want to break down in your grip,
Tell you everything but no,
Instead I abandon ship
Again
Running from the truth
I miss the everlasting heat of the sun
My sensations are weak, most already gone
I miss to feel emotion,
Colours as vast as the ocean
An unlimited amount I had,
But now they’re all gone
Maybe all these negative thoughts,
I just have to act on
Thinking about what’s going on
I do that a lot,
Ever since I fought
The lack of a sunshine
It’s the main reason I’m not fine
Not fine at all, I miss the brightness
But you I haven’t missed, not in the slightest
You, the one bearing the false truth
You’ve been bothering me since my youth
Stop pulling me back, let me be with my friends
Running through these green fields,
Before it all ends
Its the little things, a breeze through my hair
Well the weather’s always changing, to be fair
Can’t expect it to always be sunny
But it’s been raining for too long now,
This isn’t funny
Droplets the size of cars
Drowning my brain
I’m gasping for air,
I’m going insane
But it’s the little things, and in the end
I’ll even crack a smile as I descend
I miss your touch
Oh I miss it so much
Your laugh, cry and warm face
The memories they’ll never erase
But you’re now gone, I miss you friend
I wipe a tear as you ascend
For the last time.
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