I pick myself up, barely able
To stay on my feet, my legs are unstable
I’ve had an accident, I’m rehabilitating
Everyone must think I am exaggerating
But I’m not, I struggle but because you can’t see
The pain I’m in, oh I’d be
So happy to be rid of the torment
But instead I once more descend to some extent
How frequent is this event meant to prevent,
My freedom as a human being?
I’m not arguing, I already know we’re not agreeing
I’ve given up on that, you just don’t understand
Let it be said, what this accident represents
It’s just as real as all these events,
That people tend to empathize with
But I speak of something different, call me a wordsmith
I’m speaking of a ruthless embodiment of darkness
Anything but harmless
To be clear; to let this come across
We’re talking about my depressing thoughts
They just won’t let me sleep
Desperately yelling it’s something I need
To beat this evil I must keep
Living, simply living
Living until I fall asleep
Just as my knees stop trembling
I smile to myself, but I keep questioning
Will my legs hold me up, even if I go forth?
I take my first step,
I’m blocked by a wall of some sort
In the middle of the street,
Can’t turn back or go on, so I plead
Please, help, I can’t walk anymore
A car runs into me, I fly through the air
And then crash to the floor
My mind fills back up with despair
I wake up in the ER
I can’t feel either legs
Again, this invisible car?
It struck me again
And no I don’t feign
Any of this horrible pain
Even though my legs are still here
They don’t work anymore,
How is that not clear?
Please see through the surface
Because I’m searching for a purpose
To not give up, to not give in
But where do I begin?
Maybe I’ll need some crutches at first
But I want to get rid of the pain
Because that’s the worst
I find these self-driving cars so scary
All these people if they’re not weary
Stop when told to do so,
Not when they want to, no
We’re not thinking straight
We want to prevent accidents
But it all comes down to fate
I’ve never been reckless,
But my mind has left me breathless
It’s a hard hit, and it echoes through the brain
All this pain is mainly to blame
Please just drain every grain of agony
From my body, its now actually
Simply a fantasy
To live a stable, happy life
All I’ve been doing is barely survive
It’s in the paper, another casualty
He was still so young, the man says casually
But it’s a dangerous road he wandered
The opportunity of happiness he squandered
But as the man takes a closer look at that boy
He’s not alive, but he looks to be filled with joy
A smile on his face that nobody could erase
It’s the first time the boy had smiled
The last time was when he was a child
But now the pain is gone
And a trail of blood is drawn
On the road
So please, help me off this road
For I don’t want another car to be towed
I’m determined to keep walking,
But I need help, even if it’s only talking
Reach out to me, please
I’m unable to,
The street
It sticks like glue
to my feet
Maybe I need to accept it
Embrace this fatal fate of mine
There’s only one way for this to end
I know there is,
It’s dying
Jan 30, 2018
Jan 30, 2018 at 8:24 PM UTC
I pick myself up, barely able
To stay on my feet, my legs are unstable
I’ve had an accident, I’m rehabilitating
Everyone must think I am exaggerating
But I’m not, I struggle but because you can’t see
The pain I’m in, oh I’d be
So happy to be rid of the torment
But instead I once more descend to some extent
How frequent is this event meant to prevent,
My freedom as a human being?
I’m not arguing, I already know we’re not agreeing
I’ve given up on that, you just don’t understand
Let it be said, what this accident represents
It’s just as real as all these events,
That people tend to empathize with
But I speak of something different, call me a wordsmith
I’m speaking of a ruthless embodiment of darkness
Anything but harmless
To be clear; to let this come across
We’re talking about my depressing thoughts
They just won’t let me sleep
Desperately yelling it’s something I need
To beat this evil I must keep
Living, simply living
Living until I fall asleep
Just as my knees stop trembling
I smile to myself, but I keep questioning
Will my legs hold me up, even if I go forth?
I take my first step,
I’m blocked by a wall of some sort
In the middle of the street,
Can’t turn back or go on, so I plead
Please, help, I can’t walk anymore
A car runs into me, I fly through the air
And then crash to the floor
My mind fills back up with despair
I wake up in the ER
I can’t feel either legs
Again, this invisible car?
It struck me again
And no I don’t feign
Any of this horrible pain
Even though my legs are still here
They don’t work anymore,
How is that not clear?
Please see through the surface
Because I’m searching for a purpose
To not give up, to not give in
But where do I begin?
Maybe I’ll need some crutches at first
But I want to get rid of the pain
Because that’s the worst
I find these self-driving cars so scary
All these people if they’re not weary
Stop when told to do so,
Not when they want to, no
We’re not thinking straight
We want to prevent accidents
But it all comes down to fate
I’ve never been reckless,
But my mind has left me breathless
It’s a hard hit, and it echoes through the brain
All this pain is mainly to blame
Please just drain every grain of agony
From my body, its now actually
Simply a fantasy
To live a stable, happy life
All I’ve been doing is barely survive
It’s in the paper, another casualty
He was still so young, the man says casually
But it’s a dangerous road he wandered
The opportunity of happiness he squandered
But as the man takes a closer look at that boy
He’s not alive, but he looks to be filled with joy
A smile on his face that nobody could erase
It’s the first time the boy had smiled
The last time was when he was a child
But now the pain is gone
And a trail of blood is drawn
On the road
So please, help me off this road
For I don’t want another car to be towed
I’m determined to keep walking,
But I need help, even if it’s only talking
Reach out to me, please
I’m unable to,
The street
It sticks like glue
to my feet
Maybe I need to accept it
Embrace this fatal fate of mine
There’s only one way for this to end
I know there is,
It’s dying
Request permission to use this poem