When I fall for a guy
it's like
doing ******
Barely eating
because he turns
my stomach inside
out
when he kisses me
with tongue (and he knows it).
Restless sleeping
because I hear
my skin begging
him to touch me (and he knows it).
I trace lustful
track marks,
reveling in the ravaged
fallout
but ignoring
the dark hollows
under my eyes
and ribs poking out
from crop tops--
they don't bother me
so naturally
my friends give
a full length Ted Talk
on "Being Independent:
Don't Get Attached and
Give Him Everything He Wants 101"
Family doesn't even ask
but tell me he's not
good
enough,
handing out cryptic warnings
like condoms from the RA
that isn't worth listening to.
So naturally
I ruin their interventions
with sleepover
sexcapades that not
even a wine-drunk
binge can fool
me into thinking is real.
His pretty words whispered
into my ear
are needles
into my arm--facilitating
illusions that are
just
delusions.
Jan 19, 2018
Jan 19, 2018 at 3:20 PM UTC
When I fall for a guy
it's like
doing ******
Barely eating
because he turns
my stomach inside
out
when he kisses me
with tongue (and he knows it).
Restless sleeping
because I hear
my skin begging
him to touch me (and he knows it).
I trace lustful
track marks,
reveling in the ravaged
fallout
but ignoring
the dark hollows
under my eyes
and ribs poking out
from crop tops--
they don't bother me
so naturally
my friends give
a full length Ted Talk
on "Being Independent:
Don't Get Attached and
Give Him Everything He Wants 101"
Family doesn't even ask
but tell me he's not
good
enough,
handing out cryptic warnings
like condoms from the RA
that isn't worth listening to.
So naturally
I ruin their interventions
with sleepover
sexcapades that not
even a wine-drunk
binge can fool
me into thinking is real.
His pretty words whispered
into my ear
are needles
into my arm--facilitating
illusions that are
just
delusions.
But isn't it the truth, though.
