I take medication
Zoloft, Xanax. Paxil, Prozac, Prazocin. I consume them like water; the only thing keeping me alive. The only thing worth living for. The reason I can function the way I do.
I avoid.
I avoid Luke and Dawson (K.C.) Illinois and Green Bay. My mother's threats, and my fathers grasp against my neck. I avoid.
I have flashbacks.
I used to see him, her, and them in my sleep. Her being the evil stepmother. Him being my cousin and classmate. Alas, them being the bullies. I played it out, event by event, play by play.
I self medicate.
Marijuana and nicotine. Cutting and burning. I would to it until I became numb.
Lastly, I have "distorted blaming"
Only blaming myself. For not saying no. Or not grabbing the doorknob. Or only taking my anger out on my mom.
Nov 26, 2017
Nov 26, 2017 at 2:37 PM UTC
I take medication
Zoloft, Xanax. Paxil, Prozac, Prazocin. I consume them like water; the only thing keeping me alive. The only thing worth living for. The reason I can function the way I do.
I avoid.
I avoid Luke and Dawson (K.C.) Illinois and Green Bay. My mother's threats, and my fathers grasp against my neck. I avoid.
I have flashbacks.
I used to see him, her, and them in my sleep. Her being the evil stepmother. Him being my cousin and classmate. Alas, them being the bullies. I played it out, event by event, play by play.
I self medicate.
Marijuana and nicotine. Cutting and burning. I would to it until I became numb.
Lastly, I have "distorted blaming"
Only blaming myself. For not saying no. Or not grabbing the doorknob. Or only taking my anger out on my mom.