I can change my mood at the drop of a hat
One extreme to another; I'm the epitome of that
Selfishly I'll draw u in because I need ur touch
I'll push u away just as fast coz I care too much
Emotionally I'm wounded and don't know how to heal
I think things I shouldn't think and feel things I shouldn't feel
I take solace in silence rather than speak
I don't want to be vunerable I hate that I'm weak
I analyze our conversations, I break down every word
You could be singing praises but it wasn't what I heard
I always tend to listen to the voice I shouldnt hear
The haunting words of rejection, abandonment and fear
My triggers change daily, im so hard to predict
Happy one minute, the next moment; conflict
Pain,rejection, exhile and shame
I know I'm at fault but its you that I blame
I blame you for not knowing exactly what to say
I judge you for not doing the things I want done in a very particular way
Logically I get it, I understand the way I act
I don't how to fix myself, it's just a skill I lack
With all of my quirks and personality flaws
I feel it's for the best that I'm behind closed doors
Safer on my own so there's no pain's involved
Alone isn't ideal, but how else will my issues be solved
I can be me when I'm away from the crowd
I can just be myself cause I say I'm allowed
Where's this happy person that other people see?
It's time for me to let him out, time to be set free
Sep 29, 2017
Sep 29, 2017 at 10:49 PM UTC
I can change my mood at the drop of a hat
One extreme to another; I'm the epitome of that
Selfishly I'll draw u in because I need ur touch
I'll push u away just as fast coz I care too much
Emotionally I'm wounded and don't know how to heal
I think things I shouldn't think and feel things I shouldn't feel
I take solace in silence rather than speak
I don't want to be vunerable I hate that I'm weak
I analyze our conversations, I break down every word
You could be singing praises but it wasn't what I heard
I always tend to listen to the voice I shouldnt hear
The haunting words of rejection, abandonment and fear
My triggers change daily, im so hard to predict
Happy one minute, the next moment; conflict
Pain,rejection, exhile and shame
I know I'm at fault but its you that I blame
I blame you for not knowing exactly what to say
I judge you for not doing the things I want done in a very particular way
Logically I get it, I understand the way I act
I don't how to fix myself, it's just a skill I lack
With all of my quirks and personality flaws
I feel it's for the best that I'm behind closed doors
Safer on my own so there's no pain's involved
Alone isn't ideal, but how else will my issues be solved
I can be me when I'm away from the crowd
I can just be myself cause I say I'm allowed
Where's this happy person that other people see?
It's time for me to let him out, time to be set free
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