To all my sober friends,
If you were one of my friends during my addiction that I left behind
please forgive me I am sorry.
I wasn't in the right frame of mind
I was too focused on my chaotic life,
I wasn't available to be there for you
please don't judge me based on who I became and what I had to do
Some of you may not understand what it's like on Satan's dance floor
before the devil found me,
remember who I was before
Some of you know the combination to unlock the demon's vaults
knowing the secret to walk away instead of being in a never-ending waltz
To all my sober friends, you possess a strength that I admire
some of you found joy in life again, some of you never fell into the fire
Just don't blame yourself for my actions, I made my own choices
I knew the game, I took the risks and listened to the evil voices
I was once that sober friend who was always getting left out
I could never grasp what hold the drugs had and what they were all about
Embarrassed by the slave I'd become there was only me to blame
I knew all this but still I took his hand and walked right into the flame
It wasn't a conscious decision it was one that was vexed
It was based on who can inflate your ego and where to score next
I could ask anyone who's felt the flames to listen to what I have to say
But addicts hearts won't listen, they always need to learn the hard way
We need proof that it will ruin our lives to the darkest parts of our souls
we need to see it with our own eyes, we need to feel the holes
We broke our promises that we made and took his hand to dance
even though we wanted to rest the devil continued to prance
Dragging us through every waltz, tango and two-step
when we fall he comforts us like a friend he's always kept
All along it was us, we were the ones who needed to let go
I hope you never dance with him, i hope you never know
I pray you never understand, I pray you see me for who I use to be
when I let go of his hand I hope you'll be there waiting for me
Hold out a hand for me, be someone
that makes the bad things run and hide
not someone that I allow to drag me, be someone who walks beside
You give me the hope that I can be strong and let go of the devil's hand
there is a better life than dancing to the devil's evil band
You're my prayer I say each night before I go to sleep
please know that you crossed my mind when I was in too deep
I didn't want to be embarrassed, if we didn't talk you wouldn't know
if i didn't see you then there would be nothing I had to show
I wouldn't let you down like I let myself down every day
thank you for being who you are, it's for you I pray
Continue being the light because one day I won't be at his command
I will see you again even if you choose not to take my hand
Even if you're not there waiting know that with your help i grew
I hold no loathing towards you, you just did what i could never do
It's not the life I wanted, it's one I wouldn't have picked
with kind regards, from yours sincerely, your friend the drug addict
Sep 29, 2017
Sep 29, 2017 at 10:33 PM UTC
To all my sober friends,
If you were one of my friends during my addiction that I left behind
please forgive me I am sorry.
I wasn't in the right frame of mind
I was too focused on my chaotic life,
I wasn't available to be there for you
please don't judge me based on who I became and what I had to do
Some of you may not understand what it's like on Satan's dance floor
before the devil found me,
remember who I was before
Some of you know the combination to unlock the demon's vaults
knowing the secret to walk away instead of being in a never-ending waltz
To all my sober friends, you possess a strength that I admire
some of you found joy in life again, some of you never fell into the fire
Just don't blame yourself for my actions, I made my own choices
I knew the game, I took the risks and listened to the evil voices
I was once that sober friend who was always getting left out
I could never grasp what hold the drugs had and what they were all about
Embarrassed by the slave I'd become there was only me to blame
I knew all this but still I took his hand and walked right into the flame
It wasn't a conscious decision it was one that was vexed
It was based on who can inflate your ego and where to score next
I could ask anyone who's felt the flames to listen to what I have to say
But addicts hearts won't listen, they always need to learn the hard way
We need proof that it will ruin our lives to the darkest parts of our souls
we need to see it with our own eyes, we need to feel the holes
We broke our promises that we made and took his hand to dance
even though we wanted to rest the devil continued to prance
Dragging us through every waltz, tango and two-step
when we fall he comforts us like a friend he's always kept
All along it was us, we were the ones who needed to let go
I hope you never dance with him, i hope you never know
I pray you never understand, I pray you see me for who I use to be
when I let go of his hand I hope you'll be there waiting for me
Hold out a hand for me, be someone
that makes the bad things run and hide
not someone that I allow to drag me, be someone who walks beside
You give me the hope that I can be strong and let go of the devil's hand
there is a better life than dancing to the devil's evil band
You're my prayer I say each night before I go to sleep
please know that you crossed my mind when I was in too deep
I didn't want to be embarrassed, if we didn't talk you wouldn't know
if i didn't see you then there would be nothing I had to show
I wouldn't let you down like I let myself down every day
thank you for being who you are, it's for you I pray
Continue being the light because one day I won't be at his command
I will see you again even if you choose not to take my hand
Even if you're not there waiting know that with your help i grew
I hold no loathing towards you, you just did what i could never do
It's not the life I wanted, it's one I wouldn't have picked
with kind regards, from yours sincerely, your friend the drug addict
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