Trusted or Assumed?

indioul Poems

I trusted you. I trusted that even if I let go of your hand, you'd never let go of mine. I trusted you. I trusted that you would listen to understand, not listen only to retaliate. I trusted you. I trusted that you were my go to person, not the one who had to walk away from me. I trusted you. I trusted that you would argue until it's fixed, not punish me with silence and distance. I trusted you. I trusted that you would stay with me, not walk out of the house and not come back. I trusted you. I trusted that you would come back wanting me, not back only coz I asked you to return. I trusted you. I trusted that you want me even through this, not just be with me coz you have to. I trusted you. I trusted that you love and care for me, not just said so and still had the courage to walk out. I trusted you. or maybe that wasn't trust. Perhaps... I assumed you. I assumed that you'd hold my hand, even if I'd let go. I assumed that you listen and understand me, even if you're only going to retaliate. I assumed that you were my go to person, even if you wanted to walk away from me. I assumed that you would argue until it's fixed, even if silence and distance were mere threats. I assumed that you would stay with me, even if you wanted to walk out and not come back. I assumed that you would come back wanting me, even if you would only return coz I'd have asked. I assumed that you want me even through this, even if you were only being with me coz you had to. I assumed that you loved and cared for me, even if you had the courage to walk out. I assumed you. And thought I'd trusted you. Coz isn't that what you do, when you love and think you really know someone? Trust them and assume them? Maybe that's where I went wrong. I should've trusted you for who you are. Or assumed differently. Maybe I should learn the difference between the two. Maybe I should learn to love better. Maybe I should...