In my mind there is a voice that likes to play a game
It's quite like me but not quite the same
Every day we play tug of war
I don't know how long we've been playing it for
When it's winning I feel completely wrong
Like a singer without a song
It starts to provide explanations
And I start to feel degredation
It seems to know why I'm hopeless
And why I'll always be mired in loneliness
And just like that, the voice becomes my voice
My reality and my only choice
However, sometimes I start to feel strong
I pull, I start winning and am no longer wrong
My love is no longer just superfluous
My flaws no longer mean I'm worthless
They never are of course
It's just that these thoughts are injected daily by force
Not by a negligient mother
Or a bully who just wants someone to bother
But by a voice that just wants to play the same game
A voice with only one aim, to take over my name
And so we continue playing tug of war
I don't know how long we've been playing it for
I just wish this room had a door...
Aug 11, 2017
Aug 11, 2017 at 11:48 AM UTC
In my mind there is a voice that likes to play a game
It's quite like me but not quite the same
Every day we play tug of war
I don't know how long we've been playing it for
When it's winning I feel completely wrong
Like a singer without a song
It starts to provide explanations
And I start to feel degredation
It seems to know why I'm hopeless
And why I'll always be mired in loneliness
And just like that, the voice becomes my voice
My reality and my only choice
However, sometimes I start to feel strong
I pull, I start winning and am no longer wrong
My love is no longer just superfluous
My flaws no longer mean I'm worthless
They never are of course
It's just that these thoughts are injected daily by force
Not by a negligient mother
Or a bully who just wants someone to bother
But by a voice that just wants to play the same game
A voice with only one aim, to take over my name
And so we continue playing tug of war
I don't know how long we've been playing it for
I just wish this room had a door...
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