What went wrong? How was I so dumb?
To think I was good enough for you & we could fall in love
You could never be my soulmate
Because you curse your soul each time you rage
I used to have these crystal dreams of a future with you in them
Now I wish they never popped into my head
Blurring, stirring, twisting & turning these thoughts in my mind
You're words keep stealing this desperate happiness of mine
Chiseling your way to the core of my threshold
And when I break, I promise you'll have NO control
Thoughts of disgust & hopelessness fill my body
When you get dramatic with me in the hotel lobby
Filled with depression & anger, it's a vicious chain
You detox, then relapse & I don't want this pain
You're into trashing your brain with harsh drugs
So that you can tell me to go run off with the "plugs"
I'm so ******* sick & tired of your pain, anger & devastation
But here i foolishly am, still taking this humiliation
You are becoming toxic before my very eyes
And I won't stand by as you tell me all these lies
You try to speak, but all I hear is the same vile song
You're throwing me to the wolves but i'll come back stronger
And I've been hiding Carmen for so long
But neither of us could care any longer
But when I'm back, I won't come back for you
I refuse to feel that same feeling of the miserable blue
I am not her, I will never be her
So I will not be treated as if I am her
And you will see when I'm gone,
I Was Never Her
Jun 6, 2017
Jun 6, 2017 at 4:50 PM UTC
What went wrong? How was I so dumb?
To think I was good enough for you & we could fall in love
You could never be my soulmate
Because you curse your soul each time you rage
I used to have these crystal dreams of a future with you in them
Now I wish they never popped into my head
Blurring, stirring, twisting & turning these thoughts in my mind
You're words keep stealing this desperate happiness of mine
Chiseling your way to the core of my threshold
And when I break, I promise you'll have NO control
Thoughts of disgust & hopelessness fill my body
When you get dramatic with me in the hotel lobby
Filled with depression & anger, it's a vicious chain
You detox, then relapse & I don't want this pain
You're into trashing your brain with harsh drugs
So that you can tell me to go run off with the "plugs"
I'm so ******* sick & tired of your pain, anger & devastation
But here i foolishly am, still taking this humiliation
You are becoming toxic before my very eyes
And I won't stand by as you tell me all these lies
You try to speak, but all I hear is the same vile song
You're throwing me to the wolves but i'll come back stronger
And I've been hiding Carmen for so long
But neither of us could care any longer
But when I'm back, I won't come back for you
I refuse to feel that same feeling of the miserable blue
I am not her, I will never be her
So I will not be treated as if I am her
And you will see when I'm gone,
I Was Never Her
