Alone again in this four-room house;
the wind stagnant, like water.
empty beds
crumpled
from bodies that have long ago left.
On the table there is but one placemat
and eight chairs.
I have turned off all the lights
to look at myself
reflected
on the moon on my table.
I wish you were here
but you never are, never were.
you are a ghost
hiding behind words from far away.
It's been days of us reading
each other.
letters, commas, question
marks dancing
into a person.
I crane my neck to hear your voice
but there are only faint echoes,
like murmurs
from distant mountains.
There is a house on Trepidation Street
and it is where I have often lived.
You are beyond
a poem
you are beyond me
you are my fear in human form
because you are so many things I am not,
talented
intelligent
interesting.
you are what I've been looking for
and more,
it is this more that makes me fear
the distance
between us is further than my imperfection can take.
My own fear rests
in my occupation of this space
you've given me: between loving you
and wondering
if
you love me too.
or perhaps
in the realization
that no good poem will come to me untilyouleaveme
but I don't think any poem could be worth losing
you.
May 1, 2012
May 1, 2012 at 8:01 AM UTC
Alone again in this four-room house;
the wind stagnant, like water.
empty beds
crumpled
from bodies that have long ago left.
On the table there is but one placemat
and eight chairs.
I have turned off all the lights
to look at myself
reflected
on the moon on my table.
I wish you were here
but you never are, never were.
you are a ghost
hiding behind words from far away.
It's been days of us reading
each other.
letters, commas, question
marks dancing
into a person.
I crane my neck to hear your voice
but there are only faint echoes,
like murmurs
from distant mountains.
There is a house on Trepidation Street
and it is where I have often lived.
You are beyond
a poem
you are beyond me
you are my fear in human form
because you are so many things I am not,
talented
intelligent
interesting.
you are what I've been looking for
and more,
it is this more that makes me fear
the distance
between us is further than my imperfection can take.
My own fear rests
in my occupation of this space
you've given me: between loving you
and wondering
if
you love me too.
or perhaps
in the realization
that no good poem will come to me untilyouleaveme
but I don't think any poem could be worth losing
you.
I find it easier to write when I am high on a broken heart or an unrequited love.
