Is it so bad to be the way I am?
I can barely convince myself
To get out of bed
If I'm not sleeping all day
To be reminded to eat
Or reminded what happened yesterday
I get so dizzy, I fall down
Get so tired that my whole body
Shuts down
And there are even days
When I hate myself
So strongly, that I want nothing more than to punish myself for living
I don't even want to die out of pity
But I feel like I am so toxic
That I deserve to die
I deserve all the pain the world has to offer
When anything bad happens in my life
Anymore, I don't hardly get upset
I merely accept it, and say that's what I get
For being who I am
I don't even want to live
I'm so high on medication
And yet I can't image lasting
One moment in my natural mind
I want to die
I want to die
I think about it all the time
Look into my eyes
And tell me it'll be alright
It'll only be another lie
Mar 18, 2017
Mar 18, 2017 at 2:53 AM UTC
Is it so bad to be the way I am?
I can barely convince myself
To get out of bed
If I'm not sleeping all day
To be reminded to eat
Or reminded what happened yesterday
I get so dizzy, I fall down
Get so tired that my whole body
Shuts down
And there are even days
When I hate myself
So strongly, that I want nothing more than to punish myself for living
I don't even want to die out of pity
But I feel like I am so toxic
That I deserve to die
I deserve all the pain the world has to offer
When anything bad happens in my life
Anymore, I don't hardly get upset
I merely accept it, and say that's what I get
For being who I am
I don't even want to live
I'm so high on medication
And yet I can't image lasting
One moment in my natural mind
I want to die
I want to die
I think about it all the time
Look into my eyes
And tell me it'll be alright
It'll only be another lie
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