It makes me feel so alive
As i watch it bleed
It makes me feel so alive
Its such a sudden need
The pain is like a rush
If you saw me
You would definitely blush
Because this is not who im supposed to be
But im afraid
Its who i am
The price must be paid
So that i can stand
Stand myself
Without this knife
I would crumble
And i would end my life
So i continue to cut my skin
I dont care if its a sin
Its what must be done
If im to continue to see the sun
Everyone needs something
To cope with pain
This is what i need
For there to be any gain
I love the blood
I love feeling it flood
Down my leg
Im not going to beg
For help
So inwardly i yelp
In pain
And i watch the rain
Of red
That will scare me skin
And i want it to end
But i cant stop
Its out of my control
I have no soul
Im just a robot
Who must bleed
I have to feed
On this bright red sin
So i cut again and again
But there has to be more
Christ has settled my score
I wont give up
I wont stay stuck
I will keep moving
I will let go of this knife
I wont let it rule my life
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 4:56 PM UTC
It makes me feel so alive
As i watch it bleed
It makes me feel so alive
Its such a sudden need
The pain is like a rush
If you saw me
You would definitely blush
Because this is not who im supposed to be
But im afraid
Its who i am
The price must be paid
So that i can stand
Stand myself
Without this knife
I would crumble
And i would end my life
So i continue to cut my skin
I dont care if its a sin
Its what must be done
If im to continue to see the sun
Everyone needs something
To cope with pain
This is what i need
For there to be any gain
I love the blood
I love feeling it flood
Down my leg
Im not going to beg
For help
So inwardly i yelp
In pain
And i watch the rain
Of red
That will scare me skin
And i want it to end
But i cant stop
Its out of my control
I have no soul
Im just a robot
Who must bleed
I have to feed
On this bright red sin
So i cut again and again
But there has to be more
Christ has settled my score
I wont give up
I wont stay stuck
I will keep moving
I will let go of this knife
I wont let it rule my life
An old poem about self harm, but there is hope to get this past you dont have to continue down this dark path, there is a God who loves you very much, and he is there for you, he is a father to the fatherless.
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