i want to scream **** you god !!
**** you for letting people hurt so badly that
they feel the only way for their pain to end
is to take their lives.
**** you for not letting me die when
i tried so hard to leave this world.
i am still hurting god
i am hurting so much.
i am angry at you god but
i need you right now.
i need you more than ever.
i feel so alone, god.
please help me
please guide me
please hold me
please comfort me
please let me know why you are giving
me so much pain all at once because
it feels like you are trying to **** me.
no human is meant to withstand
such heavy things all at once.
is this you trying to let me know
that i can’t do this on my own?
is this you telling me to reach for you?
because if it is god, then i will reach.
i promise i will reach.
i will do anything to find peace and strength
in this life because i am feeling so tired and weak.
i know i want to kick and scream and punch you, god
but i also want to believe in you, know you and trust you.
i have an overwhelming urge to love everyone,
to walk up and hug random people on the street.
anything to keep them from the pain i have felt.
god,
please love everyone a little louder tonight.
please hold the hurting extra tight.
i don’t usually ask for much, god
but if you have some love left over,
please send it my way.
i can’t do this on my own anymore.
Feb 18, 2017
Feb 18, 2017 at 1:12 PM UTC
i want to scream **** you god !!
**** you for letting people hurt so badly that
they feel the only way for their pain to end
is to take their lives.
**** you for not letting me die when
i tried so hard to leave this world.
i am still hurting god
i am hurting so much.
i am angry at you god but
i need you right now.
i need you more than ever.
i feel so alone, god.
please help me
please guide me
please hold me
please comfort me
please let me know why you are giving
me so much pain all at once because
it feels like you are trying to **** me.
no human is meant to withstand
such heavy things all at once.
is this you trying to let me know
that i can’t do this on my own?
is this you telling me to reach for you?
because if it is god, then i will reach.
i promise i will reach.
i will do anything to find peace and strength
in this life because i am feeling so tired and weak.
i know i want to kick and scream and punch you, god
but i also want to believe in you, know you and trust you.
i have an overwhelming urge to love everyone,
to walk up and hug random people on the street.
anything to keep them from the pain i have felt.
god,
please love everyone a little louder tonight.
please hold the hurting extra tight.
i don’t usually ask for much, god
but if you have some love left over,
please send it my way.
i can’t do this on my own anymore.
