Is This A Dream?

senpaimoon Poems

I am forever drowning in a place where I cannot move I cannot breathe Yet time still goes on all around me. I have learned to call this place home,for no matter how hard I try I cannot escape. Time has no place here Everything lies still. I do not move on from the trauma I have been through each **** is shown to me over and over again They call it PTSD post traumatic stress disorder You'd think that after all these times I could avoid this inevitability * I was ***** last night* Thinking I was in the company of friends, I got drunk I could feel everything happening to me but I couldn't say no It was as if I was only a husk of myself I wasn't there When I finally came too, I squeezed my legs together. You wouldn't stop touching me I moved to the corner of the bed Holding onto myself tightly, hoping this was just a dream You wouldn't stop touching me PLEASE STOP TOUCHING ME It's over now I'm back to the place where everything lies still.