Reminded of a time when I felt so dark inside
Almost as if my identity was slowly being erased from this earth.
My reflection one big blur.
My identity non existent.
I no longer recognize the girl in the mirror.
Her pretty face with hollow eyes.
A small part of her afraid for her.
And the rest numb to the realization.
Man!
I almost lost her.
I want to apologize to her.
For almost refusing to harken to my truth.
For almost extinguishing her bright contagious flames.
For almost becoming the sad women, yet a beautiful fool.
I now vow to fight for her
To become the warrior princess she is destined to be.
I vow to always listen to her truth
I want to acknowledge her dreams and opinions.
I embrace her like never before.
Like war paint on my face,
I will wear a smile whenever I want
A tear whenever I want
A grin and even a blank slate whenever I want.
She is unapologetically me.
Never to be hidden again
Never an imposter of my truth - my true self
I will be me- me in it's purest form
And any disagreements or negative challenges or wills to change it will quickly be removed without hesitation.
For she will be seen.
She will be heard .
She will be loved and aware .
She will be.
She is here to stay
She is fearless, driven and believes in magical miracles daily.
She is me.
She is Shayleen.
Jan 3, 2017
Jan 3, 2017 at 5:56 PM UTC
Reminded of a time when I felt so dark inside
Almost as if my identity was slowly being erased from this earth.
My reflection one big blur.
My identity non existent.
I no longer recognize the girl in the mirror.
Her pretty face with hollow eyes.
A small part of her afraid for her.
And the rest numb to the realization.
Man!
I almost lost her.
I want to apologize to her.
For almost refusing to harken to my truth.
For almost extinguishing her bright contagious flames.
For almost becoming the sad women, yet a beautiful fool.
I now vow to fight for her
To become the warrior princess she is destined to be.
I vow to always listen to her truth
I want to acknowledge her dreams and opinions.
I embrace her like never before.
Like war paint on my face,
I will wear a smile whenever I want
A tear whenever I want
A grin and even a blank slate whenever I want.
She is unapologetically me.
Never to be hidden again
Never an imposter of my truth - my true self
I will be me- me in it's purest form
And any disagreements or negative challenges or wills to change it will quickly be removed without hesitation.
For she will be seen.
She will be heard .
She will be loved and aware .
She will be.
She is here to stay
She is fearless, driven and believes in magical miracles daily.
She is me.
She is Shayleen.
#self #efficacy #trueself #faith #strength
