I'm not just someone who time-after-time ***** things up.
I honestly believe I wrote the book on it.
And my book is filled with stories of how I, no one else, single-handedly messed up everything I could have had.
I've messed a whole lot of things up in my life.
And I regret it all.
And lately, I've been thinking,
About all that I've done wrong.
It's been weighing on my mind like an anvil.
And also on my heart.
I've done myself wrong,
I've done school wrong,
But most importantly,
I've done others wrong.
I've neglected outreached hands that could have been my lifelines.
I've missed opportunities that could have been my successes.
I've thrown away friends that could have been my family.
But above all else, I've missed the chances to have the things I want most in my life, and I have no one to blame but myself.
And honestly, I have no idea why.
I've had everything that I have ever wanted right in the palm of my hand.
Everything I ever wanted was reaching its hand out to me...
And I ****** it up.
And now, here I am writing another poem about the things I could've had,
Instead of enjoying them myself.
If I could just have one wish in life,
One more opportunity,
I would want to go back and fix it all,
Go back to those moments,
Go back to those days,
Go back to the hospitals,
Go back to the parks,
Go back to the rehab centers,
Go back to those precious moments,
And not **** things up.
Because if only I could just go back,
Maybe I'd have better stories to tell.
Dec 12, 2016
Dec 12, 2016 at 1:45 AM UTC
I'm not just someone who time-after-time ***** things up.
I honestly believe I wrote the book on it.
And my book is filled with stories of how I, no one else, single-handedly messed up everything I could have had.
I've messed a whole lot of things up in my life.
And I regret it all.
And lately, I've been thinking,
About all that I've done wrong.
It's been weighing on my mind like an anvil.
And also on my heart.
I've done myself wrong,
I've done school wrong,
But most importantly,
I've done others wrong.
I've neglected outreached hands that could have been my lifelines.
I've missed opportunities that could have been my successes.
I've thrown away friends that could have been my family.
But above all else, I've missed the chances to have the things I want most in my life, and I have no one to blame but myself.
And honestly, I have no idea why.
I've had everything that I have ever wanted right in the palm of my hand.
Everything I ever wanted was reaching its hand out to me...
And I ****** it up.
And now, here I am writing another poem about the things I could've had,
Instead of enjoying them myself.
If I could just have one wish in life,
One more opportunity,
I would want to go back and fix it all,
Go back to those moments,
Go back to those days,
Go back to the hospitals,
Go back to the parks,
Go back to the rehab centers,
Go back to those precious moments,
And not **** things up.
Because if only I could just go back,
Maybe I'd have better stories to tell.
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