happiness in my life exists transiently.
never have i been able to trust it completely.
on the occasions that things consistently go right,
my stomach drops and my mind keeps me awake at night.
i ponder why i must live in constant fear.
perhaps, it's due to the leaving of people i once held dear.
my hands clasp and try to hold you tight,
but my inner negativity makes this a constant fight.
i pray that one day happiness will be a friend to me.
that i won't fear its leaving and enjoy life peacefully.
Nov 22, 2016
Nov 22, 2016 at 8:40 AM UTC
happiness in my life exists transiently.
never have i been able to trust it completely.
on the occasions that things consistently go right,
my stomach drops and my mind keeps me awake at night.
i ponder why i must live in constant fear.
perhaps, it's due to the leaving of people i once held dear.
my hands clasp and try to hold you tight,
but my inner negativity makes this a constant fight.
i pray that one day happiness will be a friend to me.
that i won't fear its leaving and enjoy life peacefully.
