I have never felt this much before.
I am enclosed in a blackened bubble,
unable to see the outside world.
I am secluded away in the darkness,
not exactly knowing where to go.
I'm just rolling, hoping I'll end somewhere good.
I must continue to repeat to myself,
do not engage... *do not engage*
It is much harder than expected.
To engage is to put myself back,
back to who I always believed myself to be,
back to when I changed myself to be someone I wasn't.
To ask, to tell, to hold.
I bite my lip to stop myself,
I must not say anything.
I listen, I observe, I wait.
I engaged,
there is no return.
I am a failure
Oct 31, 2016
Oct 31, 2016 at 10:48 AM UTC
I have never felt this much before.
I am enclosed in a blackened bubble,
unable to see the outside world.
I am secluded away in the darkness,
not exactly knowing where to go.
I'm just rolling, hoping I'll end somewhere good.
I must continue to repeat to myself,
do not engage... *do not engage*
It is much harder than expected.
To engage is to put myself back,
back to who I always believed myself to be,
back to when I changed myself to be someone I wasn't.
To ask, to tell, to hold.
I bite my lip to stop myself,
I must not say anything.
I listen, I observe, I wait.
I engaged,
there is no return.
I am a failure
Engaging to most, is not engaging to all,
do not assume, for you shall not be rewarded with a good outcome
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