Has this become my life?

delilahwine Poems

Has this become my life? Writing poems that few people take their time to read Looking at the walls, windows, and shadows hoping to see light Waiting to have a social life again Has this become my life? Waiting anxiously for a friend to call or text Knowing that I can only count them with one hand One hand because there are restrictions set upon my life Has this become my life? Talking to thyself in the middle of the living room Listening to music and thinking of what could have been Looking at thyself in the mirror and controling the tears Painting my face with no ocation just because I'm bored Has this become my life? Overthinking each past situation Realizing every mistake with agony Looking at the sky and screaming why Has this become my life? Whispering to myself that it's all gonna be okay Meanwhile listening to others enjoying the outside Trying to be better in a bubble Being judged by every single present mistake or action Has this become my life? Being the center of attention at home Driving to doctors here and there, there and here Getting labs done every once in a while Has this become my life? My entire future lying in the hands of others Proffessionals determining which pills I should pop Parents restricting my social life Listening to every opinion of what I should do with my life Has this become my life? Bursting into tears in my mothers arms Accepting only professionals and mom to unburden me Denying help from others because the anger exceeds the forgivenes Has this become my life? YES.