delilahwine - Hello Poetry

Every day I feel as if I am on the verge of tears All of a sudden I start crying without a reason My mascara always smears I am supposed to be jolly, you know 'tis the season But my heart cannot handle it anymore I believe that I have become one of the heartbroken Because he used to be the one who said "I love you more" As you know, I am no longer taken But all my tears are not because of him, I hope

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Dec 31, 2017

Dec 31, 2017 at 12:15 AM UTC

'Tis The Season

Every day I feel as if I am on the verge of tears All of a sudden I start crying without a reason My mascara always smears I am supposed to be jolly, you know 'tis the season But my heart cannot handle it anymore I believe that I have become one of the heartbroken Because he used to be the one who said "I love you more" As you know, I am no longer taken But all my tears are not because of him, I hope

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Our souls met three years ago and united as one I never thought you could loose a soulmate It's been two years since you left and I still love you I know that if I saw you I would cry Is it crazy how I still love you? Is it crazy to say that you're my missing piece Since you left, I've felt empty on the inside There no cure, my remedy is you I'm sorry I cursed at you and say all those horrible things If I could take it back I would I used to believe the things I said, but they were never meant to be said As I write in the verge of tears, I just want to say "I love you"

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Dec 20, 2017

Dec 20, 2017 at 10:09 PM UTC

I love you

Our souls met three years ago and united as one I never thought you could loose a soulmate It's been two years since you left and I still love you I know that if I saw you I would cry Is it crazy how I still love you? Is it crazy to say that you're my missing piece Since you left, I've felt empty on the inside There no cure, my remedy is you I'm sorry I cursed at you and say all those horrible things If I could take it back I would I used to believe the things I said, but they were never meant to be said As I write in the verge of tears, I just want to say "I love you"

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You were my poison and I was your cure You were rotten and I was pure It was my flower I didn't know I was the girl of the hour How could you do this? It all started with a kiss The kiss of sweet unholy death I was pure, until you took my breath It was like being caught in a downward spiral My feelings were never vital I didn't know that either He said "me neither"

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Dec 14, 2017

Dec 14, 2017 at 8:13 PM UTC

My virginity

You were my poison and I was your cure You were rotten and I was pure It was my flower I didn't know I was the girl of the hour How could you do this? It all started with a kiss The kiss of sweet unholy death I was pure, until you took my breath It was like being caught in a downward spiral My feelings were never vital I didn't know that either He said "me neither"

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He asked the professional, the mature, & the kind-hearted for consult All of them told him "it's not your fault" But he could not get that through his head He thought that something was wrong with him, so many articles he read Sadly, he was psychologically affected by the psychologically conflicted Although their effort to demean him went in vain Although their goal was to make him go insane It wasn't accomplished because he ran away from his problems They thought this game was funny That the prejudice would not consume him in endless depth Everyone thought his last words before he left were "help" But all he screamed to the sky was "I want to understand, why me? He never got his answer from the bullies & he left behind a lot of things when he ran away Could you blame them? For no matter how hard he tried, he was criticized Was the decision he made correct? Why him? For he was one of the kind-hearted Mercy was all he deserved & mercy only did he see when he was broken He lost all faith in God for he was broken & this developed a new kind of prejudice in his long list Judge not what you have not lived I am tired of all the injustice, the prejudice But I will not be like you I will do something...

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Dec 4, 2016

Dec 4, 2016 at 4:17 PM UTC

Why me?

He asked the professional, the mature, & the kind-hearted for consult All of them told him "it's not your fault" But he could not get that through his head He thought that something was wrong with him, so many articles he read Sadly, he was psychologically affected by the psychologically conflicted Although their effort to demean him went in vain Although their goal was to make him go insane It wasn't accomplished because he ran away from his problems They thought this game was funny That the prejudice would not consume him in endless depth Everyone thought his last words before he left were "help" But all he screamed to the sky was "I want to understand, why me? He never got his answer from the bullies & he left behind a lot of things when he ran away Could you blame them? For no matter how hard he tried, he was criticized Was the decision he made correct? Why him? For he was one of the kind-hearted Mercy was all he deserved & mercy only did he see when he was broken He lost all faith in God for he was broken & this developed a new kind of prejudice in his long list Judge not what you have not lived I am tired of all the injustice, the prejudice But I will not be like you I will do something...

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You should ask my lover if I am a good person He'll tell you all about the girl he fell in love with He'll tell you how through his eyes she was perfect And all of her mental disorders became nothing But what is happening to me? I started to let go of myself I started to not care about anything anymore You might think he left but all he told me was "I can handle it" And what did I do? I left him because of the circumstances we were in Because my parents hate him and seeing him was too hard I no longer saw light at the end of the tunnel Nor with him, nor with myself I am such a bad person I drive those who are good to me away And I attract those who are bad to me WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? You know, I get this image of us dancing together in serenity In a place where we are no longer bothered by the circumstances It's not fair that I don't get to choose anything anymore As I write in tears I remember what we used to be And how we never got our last first dance

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Oct 26, 2016

Oct 26, 2016 at 5:52 PM UTC

I'm Sorry

You should ask my lover if I am a good person He'll tell you all about the girl he fell in love with He'll tell you how through his eyes she was perfect And all of her mental disorders became nothing But what is happening to me? I started to let go of myself I started to not care about anything anymore You might think he left but all he told me was "I can handle it" And what did I do? I left him because of the circumstances we were in Because my parents hate him and seeing him was too hard I no longer saw light at the end of the tunnel Nor with him, nor with myself I am such a bad person I drive those who are good to me away And I attract those who are bad to me WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? You know, I get this image of us dancing together in serenity In a place where we are no longer bothered by the circumstances It's not fair that I don't get to choose anything anymore As I write in tears I remember what we used to be And how we never got our last first dance

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Dear sorrow, I plead for you to go away You keep returning and I don't like your hello's You keep consuming my body and I am tired In this world I want to STAY Dear sorrow, stop taking away my pride You make me loose each opportunity for respect You make me have "Pity" from others commonly And I hate for that fact, I want to hide Dear sorrow, stop making me go seek Mary Jane With her I no longer see you for a few hours With her I am taken by the hand and we dance joyfully for hours Am I still sane? Dear sorrow, it is your fault that I do not know what is right and wrong I have made bad choices, too many so far I have died internally so many times I identify myself through every sad song

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Oct 8, 2016

Oct 8, 2016 at 6:04 PM UTC

Dear Sorrow

Dear sorrow, I plead for you to go away You keep returning and I don't like your hello's You keep consuming my body and I am tired In this world I want to STAY Dear sorrow, stop taking away my pride You make me loose each opportunity for respect You make me have "Pity" from others commonly And I hate for that fact, I want to hide Dear sorrow, stop making me go seek Mary Jane With her I no longer see you for a few hours With her I am taken by the hand and we dance joyfully for hours Am I still sane? Dear sorrow, it is your fault that I do not know what is right and wrong I have made bad choices, too many so far I have died internally so many times I identify myself through every sad song

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I don't know what to do with my life Besides being a lovely wife, I want to be an indepent woman A woman who doesn't need a man I want a lot of riches And a heart that does not need stitches Riches as in love, money, values I do not want to be a person who is shallow I do not know what I want to study yet And I have not met my soul mate yet But some day my studies will flurish And my heart will no longer perish I sometimes live in fear of what will be Then again, we all fear what will be So, I know I'm not alone When I say we have all been left alone You might say this does not make sense I might just all be pretence Sir, these are the thoughts of a teen Who does not need anyone to lean

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Sep 25, 2016

Sep 25, 2016 at 10:28 PM UTC

Thoughts

I don't know what to do with my life Besides being a lovely wife, I want to be an indepent woman A woman who doesn't need a man I want a lot of riches And a heart that does not need stitches Riches as in love, money, values I do not want to be a person who is shallow I do not know what I want to study yet And I have not met my soul mate yet But some day my studies will flurish And my heart will no longer perish I sometimes live in fear of what will be Then again, we all fear what will be So, I know I'm not alone When I say we have all been left alone You might say this does not make sense I might just all be pretence Sir, these are the thoughts of a teen Who does not need anyone to lean

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I want to be happy forever Sadly nothing is forever My grandma said "study, forget men" Something I should of done was listen We always do something we regret And I haven't forgotten yet I haven't forgotten all the mistakes Because I put everything at stake I became the lover of many I kissed many My heart forgot how to feel And it all didn't seem real I was loosing myself How could I help thyself? The obsession of men grew bigger But I loved neither I only loved once in my life And I wish I had become his wife I miss him and it's ridiculous to say That after a year I wish he would of stayed I should have listened to my grandma and avoid love But my heart could not avoid love! I now suffer the consequence of the broken hearted And I still wish he wouldn't have parted I have to let go, trust me I know But my mind set does not let me know That I still love him so That I still want him so To my mind his just another guy To my heart he is the only guy How can my heart and mind understand each other? If they cannot stand one another

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Sep 25, 2016

Sep 25, 2016 at 10:09 PM UTC

My mind and heart

I want to be happy forever Sadly nothing is forever My grandma said "study, forget men" Something I should of done was listen We always do something we regret And I haven't forgotten yet I haven't forgotten all the mistakes Because I put everything at stake I became the lover of many I kissed many My heart forgot how to feel And it all didn't seem real I was loosing myself How could I help thyself? The obsession of men grew bigger But I loved neither I only loved once in my life And I wish I had become his wife I miss him and it's ridiculous to say That after a year I wish he would of stayed I should have listened to my grandma and avoid love But my heart could not avoid love! I now suffer the consequence of the broken hearted And I still wish he wouldn't have parted I have to let go, trust me I know But my mind set does not let me know That I still love him so That I still want him so To my mind his just another guy To my heart he is the only guy How can my heart and mind understand each other? If they cannot stand one another

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I feel empty inside Like something is missing I think that destiny is not on my side The only thing that feels this void is kissing But I do not want to be a ***** I prefer being a bore My lips have not met others since April My heart hasn't opened up since April Is love what I need to fill this void? Or is it something I should avoid? I was told to love myself first than another Yet I chose to love another And so my heart got broken And since then I haven't spoken I have not spoken the language of love I do not want to know of love Nobody understands this pain I loved him, was my effort in vain? I know I was the one who left him And so I became slim I lost 30 pounds But I thought we were meant to be bound I had to leave him, there was no remedy Yet I was not ready Almost a year has past and I haven't forgotten That he was the one who broke my heart

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Sep 25, 2016

Sep 25, 2016 at 9:54 PM UTC

Him.

I feel empty inside Like something is missing I think that destiny is not on my side The only thing that feels this void is kissing But I do not want to be a ***** I prefer being a bore My lips have not met others since April My heart hasn't opened up since April Is love what I need to fill this void? Or is it something I should avoid? I was told to love myself first than another Yet I chose to love another And so my heart got broken And since then I haven't spoken I have not spoken the language of love I do not want to know of love Nobody understands this pain I loved him, was my effort in vain? I know I was the one who left him And so I became slim I lost 30 pounds But I thought we were meant to be bound I had to leave him, there was no remedy Yet I was not ready Almost a year has past and I haven't forgotten That he was the one who broke my heart

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Has this become my life? Writing poems that few people take their time to read Looking at the walls, windows, and shadows hoping to see light Waiting to have a social life again Has this become my life? Waiting anxiously for a friend to call or text Knowing that I can only count them with one hand One hand because there are restrictions set upon my life Has this become my life? Talking to thyself in the middle of the living room Listening to music and thinking of what could have been Looking at thyself in the mirror and controling the tears Painting my face with no ocation just because I'm bored Has this become my life? Overthinking each past situation Realizing every mistake with agony Looking at the sky and screaming why Has this become my life? Whispering to myself that it's all gonna be okay Meanwhile listening to others enjoying the outside Trying to be better in a bubble Being judged by every single present mistake or action Has this become my life? Being the center of attention at home Driving to doctors here and there, there and here Getting labs done every once in a while Has this become my life? My entire future lying in the hands of others Proffessionals determining which pills I should pop Parents restricting my social life Listening to every opinion of what I should do with my life Has this become my life? Bursting into tears in my mothers arms Accepting only professionals and mom to unburden me Denying help from others because the anger exceeds the forgivenes Has this become my life? YES.

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Jul 15, 2016

Jul 15, 2016 at 9:05 PM UTC

Has this become my life?

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