At the start of this year
I ended my life
knowing that there's no worth.
I'm not worth it
Every night at 3 am
I told myself that no one would
notice I'm gone or
cry over me
My friends would be better without me
my parents would be glad that they no longer
have to put up with me
But that's where I'm wrong
This boy from class who
borrowed a pen from me
but didn't gave it back
kept the pen and valued it
this girl I hardly spoke to
cries herself to sleep
blaming herself that if
she talked to me she could've saved me
my mother tries
to sleep in my room
wanting to feel my warmth
while drowning in tears
my dad won't stop wasting
everything he worked for
because there's no point
I'm gone
my teacher who forced me
to speak in front of the class
kept my last essay
rereading it over and over again
but that's the thing
they only did it
when they know that
I'm long gone and dead
--a.v.--
Jul 9, 2016
Jul 9, 2016 at 4:29 AM UTC
At the start of this year
I ended my life
knowing that there's no worth.
I'm not worth it
Every night at 3 am
I told myself that no one would
notice I'm gone or
cry over me
My friends would be better without me
my parents would be glad that they no longer
have to put up with me
But that's where I'm wrong
This boy from class who
borrowed a pen from me
but didn't gave it back
kept the pen and valued it
this girl I hardly spoke to
cries herself to sleep
blaming herself that if
she talked to me she could've saved me
my mother tries
to sleep in my room
wanting to feel my warmth
while drowning in tears
my dad won't stop wasting
everything he worked for
because there's no point
I'm gone
my teacher who forced me
to speak in front of the class
kept my last essay
rereading it over and over again
but that's the thing
they only did it
when they know that
I'm long gone and dead
--a.v.--
you can always message me. I'm ready to listen x
