weight in my head
weight in my chest
i am on all fours
i am dying but not externally
my brain sends chemical imbalances
like daily mail
i shouldn’t be alive
my body is a mistake
my thoughts are bound
to send me to an early grave
the air always feels so thick
suffering is invisible
i look in the mirror,
see it in the ghostly reflection
of my eyes
I am only half a soul
don’t be afraid
of the dark
but that is all that is inside of me
unknown, cold and unbearable
most days i wonder how i’m loved
monsters are only tamed, not encouraged
it’s a shame that i groom myself down
to not show the impurities that crack me open
and leak out onto the floor
look at my shaking hands, am I alive?
is this a dream?
please wake me, please cure me
Mar 31, 2016
Mar 31, 2016 at 11:59 PM UTC
weight in my head
weight in my chest
i am on all fours
i am dying but not externally
my brain sends chemical imbalances
like daily mail
i shouldn’t be alive
my body is a mistake
my thoughts are bound
to send me to an early grave
the air always feels so thick
suffering is invisible
i look in the mirror,
see it in the ghostly reflection
of my eyes
I am only half a soul
don’t be afraid
of the dark
but that is all that is inside of me
unknown, cold and unbearable
most days i wonder how i’m loved
monsters are only tamed, not encouraged
it’s a shame that i groom myself down
to not show the impurities that crack me open
and leak out onto the floor
look at my shaking hands, am I alive?
is this a dream?
please wake me, please cure me
