What do I feel? I don't know
But when I know it's hard to show
I hide it inside so I don't look weak
There are times I do not sleep
My mind is filled with so many thoughts that my mind goes blank
I know that doesn't make since but it is true
My mind is filled with so many things but I forget once it comes to you
I don't like smiling but when you are around my smile appears
I have a hard time saying I love you because that is one of my fears
I don't talk much but there are reasons why
It's because I hold so much in side
I don't think I'm that pretty
And I know for a fact that I'm not perfect
And for some reason people think I'm worthless
People told me that so much I'm starting to believe it to
I try so hard to makes things right
I try so hard to help people fight their fights
But I guess I am no help at all
Sometimes I feel like hiding in a bathroom stall
I have been called ugly and fat I also
I have been called **** and ***** but there is only so much more
I have punched walls that left scars on my knuckles
I don't like to believe it when people say 'I love you'
I also don't believe it when people say 'I'm never leaving you'
Because I just see that as a lie
I see everyone leaving my life just as they came in
I see them leaving without leaving a note or even a pen
I can never think of a subject to talk about with you
But that's ok because you are the same way too
I wonder if you have second thoughts
And if it will always be this rough
I never thought loving someone could be this tough
I get butterflies when I see you
When your around me I get excited too
I never realized loving you so much
Could make me doubt it
I don't want to worry about finding someone I love
I worry that I will never be enough
The thought of losing you makes me break down
How can I be happy and yet doubt you will always be around
Don't think for a second I am doubting your love
I just feel
Everything is going to fall apart
How can something be so good without it ending in a broken heart
In the beginning I thought it was fake
I couldn't help but think loving you is a mistake
The question is
Do you care?
Do you even know, that I never want to let you go?
But will you always be there?
Will you ever let me go?
If I cried
Would you take all the pain away?
If for any reason you lied
Would I still want you to stay?
My love for you is strong
I can not forget
Some people might say I'm making a mistake
I hope loving you won't be something I regret
Your part
I hear your problems and wipe away your tears
I love you with all my heart and that's my biggest fear
I can't get you out of my head
Everywhere I look
In the sky or on the ground
I notice your always around
You stole my heart mind and soul
With you I want to grow old
Your a girl I just met
Your just my friend I said to myself
Every time we meet I take a deep breath
When she looks at me like that I feel like I'm in the spot
I catch her eyes sometimes
Believing my own lies that she feels something to
I take my chance to get one quick glance
I look up at her and I notice she is already staring back at me
She looks away and feel my heart skip a beat
I let out the breathe I was holding
And I feel my walls slowly unfolding
One day I came up to you and tried to talk
You looked at me then looked back at your work
You started writing without saying a word
For a week I tried to get you to talk
On Monday you looked at me and smiled
For a while there I thought you were a mute child
I said hi and you answered back
When I heard you speak I almost had a heart attack
Mar 24, 2016
Mar 24, 2016 at 6:40 AM UTC
What do I feel? I don't know
But when I know it's hard to show
I hide it inside so I don't look weak
There are times I do not sleep
My mind is filled with so many thoughts that my mind goes blank
I know that doesn't make since but it is true
My mind is filled with so many things but I forget once it comes to you
I don't like smiling but when you are around my smile appears
I have a hard time saying I love you because that is one of my fears
I don't talk much but there are reasons why
It's because I hold so much in side
I don't think I'm that pretty
And I know for a fact that I'm not perfect
And for some reason people think I'm worthless
People told me that so much I'm starting to believe it to
I try so hard to makes things right
I try so hard to help people fight their fights
But I guess I am no help at all
Sometimes I feel like hiding in a bathroom stall
I have been called ugly and fat I also
I have been called **** and ***** but there is only so much more
I have punched walls that left scars on my knuckles
I don't like to believe it when people say 'I love you'
I also don't believe it when people say 'I'm never leaving you'
Because I just see that as a lie
I see everyone leaving my life just as they came in
I see them leaving without leaving a note or even a pen
I can never think of a subject to talk about with you
But that's ok because you are the same way too
I wonder if you have second thoughts
And if it will always be this rough
I never thought loving someone could be this tough
I get butterflies when I see you
When your around me I get excited too
I never realized loving you so much
Could make me doubt it
I don't want to worry about finding someone I love
I worry that I will never be enough
The thought of losing you makes me break down
How can I be happy and yet doubt you will always be around
Don't think for a second I am doubting your love
I just feel
Everything is going to fall apart
How can something be so good without it ending in a broken heart
In the beginning I thought it was fake
I couldn't help but think loving you is a mistake
The question is
Do you care?
Do you even know, that I never want to let you go?
But will you always be there?
Will you ever let me go?
If I cried
Would you take all the pain away?
If for any reason you lied
Would I still want you to stay?
My love for you is strong
I can not forget
Some people might say I'm making a mistake
I hope loving you won't be something I regret
Your part
I hear your problems and wipe away your tears
I love you with all my heart and that's my biggest fear
I can't get you out of my head
Everywhere I look
In the sky or on the ground
I notice your always around
You stole my heart mind and soul
With you I want to grow old
Your a girl I just met
Your just my friend I said to myself
Every time we meet I take a deep breath
When she looks at me like that I feel like I'm in the spot
I catch her eyes sometimes
Believing my own lies that she feels something to
I take my chance to get one quick glance
I look up at her and I notice she is already staring back at me
She looks away and feel my heart skip a beat
I let out the breathe I was holding
And I feel my walls slowly unfolding
One day I came up to you and tried to talk
You looked at me then looked back at your work
You started writing without saying a word
For a week I tried to get you to talk
On Monday you looked at me and smiled
For a while there I thought you were a mute child
I said hi and you answered back
When I heard you speak I almost had a heart attack