I.
on december thirty first
two thousand and fifteen
at nine thirty two in the morning
I stopped breathing
the devil dug his cold claws
through the tender skin
of my abdomen and he wrenched
he looked me in the eyes
and he smiled
and I died
at least I wished I had
so many nights
your name floated through my mind
and I couldn’t find why
but on new years eve
two thousand fifteen
everything suddenly
made sense to me
*call connor
if only to say goodbye
tell the boy you’re thankful for his time*
II.
we talked about you
for all of january
about your smile and your pictures
and I was fifteen again
fifteen and sitting across
a big green table
drinking a yoohoo
and looking at you
and wondering if your lips
were as soft as your hands
and if I’d ever get to know
yours like the back of mine
i’m nineteen again
nineteen and standing across
a room full of people
holding myself together
and looking at you
and wondering if
after all of this
your hands were still
as soft as I remembered
Mar 6, 2016
Mar 6, 2016 at 9:50 PM UTC
I.
on december thirty first
two thousand and fifteen
at nine thirty two in the morning
I stopped breathing
the devil dug his cold claws
through the tender skin
of my abdomen and he wrenched
he looked me in the eyes
and he smiled
and I died
at least I wished I had
so many nights
your name floated through my mind
and I couldn’t find why
but on new years eve
two thousand fifteen
everything suddenly
made sense to me
*call connor
if only to say goodbye
tell the boy you’re thankful for his time*
II.
we talked about you
for all of january
about your smile and your pictures
and I was fifteen again
fifteen and sitting across
a big green table
drinking a yoohoo
and looking at you
and wondering if your lips
were as soft as your hands
and if I’d ever get to know
yours like the back of mine
i’m nineteen again
nineteen and standing across
a room full of people
holding myself together
and looking at you
and wondering if
after all of this
your hands were still
as soft as I remembered
Connor Cummings was an incredible young artist and friend from Rockaway New Jersey. Google his name if you're interested in learning what happened to him. http://instagram.com/consception if you're interested in looking at his photography.
