Regrets fill my spoon like alphabet soup
spelling out my unfulfillment
with tiny little letters
nagging at my mind
And conflicts own me
except there’s no angel and devil
it’s just lesser evil versus lesser evil
No winner- I’m pulled apart
What if I say this
no- I can’t- too risky
but then I’m miserable
is it better to be miserable?
my daily thoughts
when it didn’t use to be
Tears are more common
than going out to eat
I am ashamed
and also ashamed I feel ashamed
I don’t want to be fragile
but I let myself fall into a crater
And people see it on my face
and I see it in the mirror
the way I once was
all entangled now in another
we don’t choose to fall
that’s the point of falling
it comes out of the blue
after you’re tripped up
And then the hurting comes
always after- like a scraped knee
and they say time will heal it
but how does that work when you keep tripping
a spinning cycle of get hurt, feel bad, tell someone, feel bad
goes on repeat, load never unloaded off my chest
The worst part is letting the hope build up
and getting let down, time and time again
Why? out into the oblivion
we ask ourselves
and How? do we keep moving
when the daily routine feels heavy
I thought my Achilles Heel was the fatal flaw
but really it's my heart, the hope, the love
when conflicts dance around
the only thing to do is write about it
Feb 14, 2016
Feb 14, 2016 at 11:33 AM UTC
Regrets fill my spoon like alphabet soup
spelling out my unfulfillment
with tiny little letters
nagging at my mind
And conflicts own me
except there’s no angel and devil
it’s just lesser evil versus lesser evil
No winner- I’m pulled apart
What if I say this
no- I can’t- too risky
but then I’m miserable
is it better to be miserable?
my daily thoughts
when it didn’t use to be
Tears are more common
than going out to eat
I am ashamed
and also ashamed I feel ashamed
I don’t want to be fragile
but I let myself fall into a crater
And people see it on my face
and I see it in the mirror
the way I once was
all entangled now in another
we don’t choose to fall
that’s the point of falling
it comes out of the blue
after you’re tripped up
And then the hurting comes
always after- like a scraped knee
and they say time will heal it
but how does that work when you keep tripping
a spinning cycle of get hurt, feel bad, tell someone, feel bad
goes on repeat, load never unloaded off my chest
The worst part is letting the hope build up
and getting let down, time and time again
Why? out into the oblivion
we ask ourselves
and How? do we keep moving
when the daily routine feels heavy
I thought my Achilles Heel was the fatal flaw
but really it's my heart, the hope, the love
when conflicts dance around
the only thing to do is write about it